this 2006

it is the end.

2007-01-27T07:07:00.000-08:00

thank you.
for your support this past 1 year. you have been through thick and thin with me. now, in year 2007, we shall walk on the next mile. :) my adventures continue at my new blog:

http://the-next-mile.blogspot.com

there's much more there now:
- my photo album
- a new template
- the adventures continue.. :)

still awaiting free time:
- 1 faith fm as you read my blog
- my personal podcast?

so, it is all at my new blog. :) see you there!

BUDGET TAMAGOTCHI

2006-12-26T05:33:00.000-08:00

Budget Tamagotchi.
Where to get?
At any 1 dollar machine that can u can find. Frequent Sightings along 7-Eleven

"Ku Liu?" (How much?)
I give you best price, SGD$2

Colours?
Well, it's up to what capsule u spin out!

Prevent Piracy! if it is 2 dollars and above, it is pirated! Don't buy!

Woooo. it's been a pretty long time since i last updated my blog! :) let me keep you updated on what's happening in my life recently....

Just got signed up for maths tuition at TLC. no, it is not Tender Loving Care, but rather, Tang Learning Centre. -.- phew. but woo, luckily, the maths tutor is nice! and yea, the homework he gives is astronomical ><

well, i really won't say much about my life. this past few weeks has really been catching up on my school work and just plain mugging and mugging and mugging. i kind of like mugging a little now, because it gives me a peace of mind when i am doing my work. Some kind of peace that i haven really been in tune with for the past 1 year because of the hectic workload. yeap but i did get back my peace, was really reading up on CS Lewis for the past few weeks and then chionging homework. TMR! i have OGL to catch up wif, when all the freshies are popping by and i am kind of dead, because, i have not been working hard on my mass dance, as i said i would!

yeappp.. wooo 2006 is going to be gone in a few more days. haaaa..... so much memories. :) but i know 2007 would be another exciting year! I am looking forward to it!

so that's all! - haven been in the mood for bloGGing :( -

Life's little things

2006-12-06T04:41:00.000-08:00

Life's little things.
Recently, God gave me the chance to experience some of life intricacies. God sent me on a trip to Chiangmai, Thailand, to help out the people there. It was a trip, that i almost could not go. I remember that i was on the verge of backing out when Ms Gan and the ex-MJCians persuaded me to stay. And God eventually, persuaded me to stay too. And i know, God always has great things prepared for us.

Met with many foreign Thai students from Satit High School, I felt weird. i wished that somehow, we could just do away with these Thai students. But time soon told us, these students were a blessing to us. They provided us with much joy and made our trips a whole new experience. For 5 days in the vilage, we lived with them; we dined with them, we did manual work together with them and we taught english to the Huay Tong school students with them. Looking back, i missed those days where we would toil together under the sun. Cracking jokes, hearing Li Wen's "zhao sia" singing. Lots of things, and then later just doing what most high school students would do, pairing people up. These Satit High students also taught me things about the Thai culture. Two years ago, the Thais were still very conservative. But now, the Thais in Chiangmai are starting to embrace the western culture: Roxy clothings, Trendy clothings that make a fashion statement and finally, moving away from over-length skirts to 3/4 pants and for the more daring ones, shorts that show the knees a little. But that's not the point, perhaps it was an underestimation, or an overestimation, the Thais have indeed shocked me with the way they handle their traditions. But perhaps it was this way, that i found it much easier to connect with them and talk to them.

I really want to write one whole chunk about what we did there, but i think that would be quite boring to read about. So i'll just write the things that matter to me.

Somehow this trip taught me about love. Some kind of feeling that God gives us, and it's also one that mankind can give us ( though, not as good as God can give, but nonetheless, still heartwarming). Ham, the Satit High girl that was assigned to our group ( along with Elizabeth ) was really one of a kind. I wasn't able to strike out well with her the first few days, perhaps still being haunt by the fact that i cannot really talk well with other people, but nonetheless, i dunnoe how, Ham still managed to get close to me. I think it was the fact that she appreciated little things. Silly things like suan-ing her and making stupid face actions. Thinks that somehow, Singaporeans ( not just girls, but guys too ) cannot appreciate. ( and even me at times,) But that's ust the way she appreciated things. And because of that,i slowly got to know her well.

But i really did not know when, she felt something special for me. i wasn't really aware of it. All the while, i just kept in mind that i as a leader had to take care of my group members. Especially the Thai friends. And i just went ahead with my duties. But somehow, she saw my concern in her. And i dunnoe how, but she just reciprocated in a rather appreciative manner. And i think, i developed some kind of feelings for her too. But it just crept in.. i din noe anything.

Until the day at airport, when we parted. I felt the intense emotional instability in me. I felt some kind of unwillingness. The unwillingness to part just fell in me. 2 years back, it wasn't anything like this. i just felt, oh, so we're going. But now, just the thought of going set in me and i cannot bear it but to break out in tears. In part, my tears was shed for leaving my Thai friends, and for leaving the place, but in a larger part, for Ham, and for the good times we had together.

yeap. that's how i learnt about love. That's how i learnt about how fragile love is in my life. That's how i learnt and that's how i feel, project h20, it really made a difference in my life. :)

can't sleep - pre trip thoughts

2006-11-24T12:33:00.000-08:00

hhha. for some reason: i cannot sleep. =(

yeap.. hhaha not that i am too excited about chiangmai or what. but suddenly, lots of things came to my mind.

wooo in about 6 more hours i will be on mi 710, on trip bound to chiangmai. oh man, i'm back there again. I dunnoe lah, i stayed on with the project because miss gan wanted me to stay on, but i kinda starting to like h20 more because i can get along wif the rest easily. and there's my 1st three months best frens: daron and abel. this trip is gonna be a fufilling one :)

just thinking back about my previous trip. wow, what a big change i have been. 2 years on, back to the same place, with the same mission, but different people, and possibly, different value system now. ironically, when i was a buddhist, i was helping out at a christian orphanage. Now that i am a christian, i am going to help out at a buddhist village. but my God is great! ;) this 2 years have really seen a big change in my thinking and stuffs. i think what impacted me the most is probably my salvation. yeap! :) and then the people that i mix around wif more often.

but i know after the chiangmai trip, life gets even better. :) starting on my DnT tuition, that is 100 bucks for 8 lessons, each lasting 1.5 hours. good deal :) for a jc student! but of course lah, dun think he will wan to continue after this year, but i just try my best, anw get 100 bucks, must really work for it, dun let it be a free gift or what. and i wanna learn guitar :( hahaa. guitar rox lah.

oh, about yesterday, went back to TK for farewell party for sec 4 councillors. things are better now. I tink this year's sec 3 batch quite capable. they did up the entire hall for the sec 4 councillors, and they got the music, the deejay and stuffs to make it sui sui. but i guess the sec 4s were a little unappreciative lah. haha even i am guilty of that, but yeap, really it was a great job. I still miss a few sec 4 councillors: aslam, yeok fei, jon and those that i spent the time wif... remember how hard we toiled for the sec 1 orientation. and mrs yeo... she changed a little. not so authoritative now, more compassionate about things. but still, the politics remain. our dear YI HEE, edmund chen's son, won the best dressed guy. but then, he din dress very nice. =X very sloppish actually. =X but i dunnoe how they judge. =X hhaha and caught up wif nasir, just talked wif him about tpjc and stuffs. and studies, cca, our old council memories. haha he is a great friend, and i really thank God that nasir was my comrade during those hard times in TK.

yeap, now just wanna be in God's presence, to just pray for this entire trip that is coming up. :)

oceans will part.

2006-11-20T06:26:00.000-08:00

as you open my eyes to the works of your hands:

Lord has so graciously done a work in my life. Just 1 year of being with the Lord and he has done countless miracles in my life. and recently, amidst the presence of the Lord in this 1st anniversary, suddenly the Lord opened my eyes to the miracles of his hand. I believe the Lord heard my revival prayer. Within one month i see my friends being saved:

Daron and Abel.
And of course, one that i always prayed for, one who has been deep in my heart, one whom I have never ceased to pray for: Crystal

I believe that the Lord will bring revival. If only we pray. ;) next on my prayer lists:

Kai Wei, Wei Jie, my parents, my sister, my cousin and those around me, lost and not found.

This past few week i have just been pondering about the Lord. suddenly i realized how far apart i am from my family and my relatives. and at a point, i got very sad. sad that yea, suddenly my life seems like very blur. i dun know what will be ahead and i dunnoe how i can cope wif the mounting pressures from the North south east west. it's kinda like a reflection period for me. one for me to just take stock and think a little. ( crystal, ur salvation just keeps on ringing in my head :) )

my mum just came back from melbourne and went to fetch her at the airport. haha saw yuzhen before that, she was kinda helping some red cross da ren wu. =P haha and she look very very pretty :) hahaa. in her light make up lah. talked for a while then catch up wif her and stuffs liddat.. haha realized that yea she's kinda the same even without her best friend patricia. hhahaa yea pretty much the luffing crapper. then mum came out and kinda went home =P hhaha

hhahha yeap. okie i kinda write till here. wanna do some reading then take a sleep.. =P tmr vball training is so late ah!! =D

thinking...

2006-11-08T05:02:00.000-08:00

wow. a lot of stuff happened this few days :)

1. confirmed - mum finally let me go to church. after 1 year of wait. :) and 1 year of preparation. thank you Lord. :)

2. op, pw - finally, over. PW came to a partial full stop with the op ending. now i left the insights and reflections to complete and then, a nice full stop to pw would come. man, i am so glad that everything is over, and God's grace gave pw a nice ending.

3. platform - just came back from platform. hahaa i love it man. gotto know lots of my generations 5 mates! erm.. and yea, saw matt there too, and isaiah, the crapper =P hahaa then after that, chen yi came to talk to me. woo, i'm so glad that there was tzman and matt there coz without them i feel very seorang. all the ahs people! ahhhaha. =P then chen yi talking about delvin!! woo stupid story, but then it's how miraculous our God is. :)

4. God has been speaking to me lately about my purpose in life. really just wanna pray about it. but he's really putting me in two areas : preaching and design. i pray that God would make it clearer to me.. :) coz everything seems so blur now :) but i bask in ur presence! =)

well, pw finally came to an end yesterday ( ahhh! it's partial end ) with the end of op. kinda sad that this journey is cuming to an end. all the sunday meetings and all the late night meetings all just cuming to the end of the journey. well, it's really been a great pleasure and great privelege. somehow i felt this group, mj072 was a group that God, u formulated so nicely. we had people of different personality, both the good and the bad, coupled with the bad points that we had to overcome as a group and then finally, u chose me, to be the leader. I feel humbled by this experience, yet thrilled by the appoinment. now that it is ending, there's a sadness in leaving, but a joy in knowing that we were once group members. :) well, there were the times of sadness, desperation and at times helplessness, but God pulled me through and i kept on the race, and finally it's ending. I've learnt to be a interdependent leader now. I know a lot of people keep on emphasising on independent leader, but no leader is independent of others. leaders have to depend on one another in the group for strength. and a leader has the responsibility to create that link. the success of a leader then, depends on how well he created that link. for me, i must say, i tried all my might. I am happy with how much effort i put in, but i know i can definitely improve on it. and well, through pw, i know that somewhere in life, i have to get out of science, and plant myself in NAFA, or some other school to take up design.

my purpose for life journey, haha is still continuing. just wanna realign myselves to the purposes of God since now it's the hols and my mum finally let me go church. praise the lord :)

and then, my fav song:
If my heart has grown cold
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
When I’m blind to my way
There Your Spirit will pray

As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
Oceans will part nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise glory shown
In my life Your will be done

Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
And my heart will find praise
I’ll delight in Your way
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

haha :)

on relationships

2006-11-01T06:26:00.000-08:00

woah, i think i haven really touch on this topic(relationships) for quite long.

but recently, i was burdened to think about this again.

i'm stuck in this situation again. where i have special feelings for two girls. at the same time? OH MAN. save me. why is this happening again?!

suddenly the Lord made me think a lot about this. but i think the Lord kept his promise. SO PRAISE HIM. :) He gave me an answer to my question. I think i'm just not mature enough yet to get into one. :) i dun wanna let history repeat itself, i dun want to let another girl scream through the phone at me again. nvr :)

well in another way or so, i think it's time to really just get my as moving. i think i am too trapped in my past own shadow. i think the ghost from my previous relationship is really haunting me. it's time to break free. it's time to give my heart to one girl. just one :)

i dunnoe who that 1 girl is. but i know, it's sure gonna be a good one. beacuse you Lord, you sent her to me. your mercy and your grace. i know it's never going to be the same again Lord.

so help me to get over the past. help me to believe in you. :) just you. and your great works and your eternal promise. :)

SENTOSA OUTING WIF 210-ERS!

2006-10-27T07:46:00.000-07:00

haha!

wah... today was sentosa with ALL our classmates! haha. fun! :) no lah, i mean, like about 7 of our classmates.

met up at pasir ris, chat and then we went sentosa all together! AHH it was so fun! :) haha love it. yeap once again, my love for sentosa rekindles itself once again. the nice white beaches. the wind, the sea. and well, at times, the babes. =P ( hey, i'm a guy k! ) but well, apart from the babes, it great to be there wif frens. hahaa

we played vball with this another group of people. hhaaha. they so so, but a lot things happened. =X this girl BUMPED into my teeth. and then albertus started to scandal me with that girl. =Xh hhaa so just play along ah. =X hha.. but then got this girl within that's quite cute. red cheeks =P hhahaa. well okie, that's not the point right? the point is my feet burnt like what when on the sand, and then yea, it was fun!! :D haha and tiring. =X

then after that we just started to cock around. then later ate and drink mineral water on the beach! hha then dunnoe how lah, started to bury constance's leg. =X hhaha then later, me and albertus got buried! hhhaha it was so nice.. the feeling is like... haha doing some massage. =P hahaa then later yun long sat at my BUTT. AHH it was very nicee!! serious.. hhhaha then the kai hua came. then pain set in =X haha!! =P evil shit la me. =P

hhha yeap then after that, we tidied ourselves up. haha the changing room is freaking darK!! haha bt i like the bathing thingy. whee it's not like some person urining on us, but more like some "liu xin yu" .ahahha kinda nice. hhaha

then we went vivocity. haha IT WAS IN A HUGE MESS. big and messy. and lots of people there. hhaha so we went long john, bought long john then went vivo the top part near the amphitheatre there to eat. =P haha then yea, it was very nice. windy, picturesque. :) haha nice.... then puneet dared yun long to do the cheer. AND HE DID IT. he shoutedd! >< omg ="X"><><><

hhaha but for that, yun long got a clap =x hhahaa. and two bucks. =x ah. for being mad =X

hhaha cool deal? then we sat bus home :) haha.

looking back.

2006-10-21T03:08:00.000-07:00

woah, i got one whole saturday free again. finally, got a time to slow down and just look back at things.

I wonder at times: " why is it so difficult to be a christian?"

the bible study that isaiah told me, about not going too fast in our christian walk sounds to start surfacing in my life. i think at times I am going a little too fast. or perhaps, i want to go fast.

getting up like 4:30 am everyday, and recently, started to fast, kinda fasted well for 2 days, and the next day, it just did not continue.

and then at times i feel a little defeated. yeap, a little lost and a little bit detached. somehow i don't feel like getting close to people who are non-christians.

but i guess at times, it's really not that hard. I've had my delightening moments: moments where i saw God's work being displayed right in front of me. I am not about to give up any time sooner. :) i'll press on. :)

haha. I love you God!

how about my promos? i really think God has made it clear to me: whether i should stay in MJ or go to a poly.

maths: 36/80 ( JUST pass)
chemistry: 52/100 (not bad..)
physics: (40/80) ( uh huh..)
gp: 61/100 ( ;) )
econs: 56/100

hahah at first i thought it was once again a reversal in marks. but then after typing my scores our, i realise that it is not. it's simply a display of how much effort i put in for each subject.

hmmz i think busy-ness really caught a hold of me. I did not sign up for OGL beacuse i think i wanna get some rest. rest from j1 stuffs and then start to concentrate on my work and getting stuffs back on track once again! :)

sentosa.. once again! :) hhaha i wanna go sentosa. sun-tanning. anyone?

well that's all. :)

the Showdown

2006-09-27T21:34:00.000-07:00

haha.. suddenly i was thinking: if i failed my promos, what would happen to me?

1. Leave MJ. yeap, that's the epitome of failing... well leave mj then leave ah. BUT sad to say, there are perhaps many things that i can't bear to part wif if i have to leave mj. hha.. 1st, it's the lame physics teachers. I dunnoe why i put them first, but yea, they just came to my mind. and then it is _ (erhum!)_ and 06s210. wooo.. hhah i dunnoe why, though i am not very close to 06s210 compared to my first three months class, but i guess there's just a great bunch of people in 06s210. there is the muggers and the players. it's just the class where everyone wants to go! And of course, haha i will miss my friends, the "chinese" friends: PEH YUN LONG haha.. yM and meng hui! and the malay friends: wadi and fiz. ( i am so racistS!) haha yeap but those are the people that supported me throughout this few months. last and the least, my indian friend! vaibz. ( CARcrazy drifter) yea... he makes the day different. haha... and the "mei nee-yu" of 210! hhaha.. and my dear PW group! :) and of course, i'll miss the infamous study area and the my christian fellowship frends! :)

2. Stay in MJ but retain: I STILL GET TO SEE MY FRENS! that's gooooood... haa i sound so girlish. okie... btu staying in mjc means i'll waste another year? haha yea.. but either way, it's the same as if i get transferred out. And yea, it's a 3 years education. haiz.. sad but perhaps retain sounds better than being transferred out.

3. GOD'S grace --> stay in mj: woo i'll just spend more time on prayer and the Word! :)

yea..cannot be negative at this moment! hhaha ( must be photograph ...hur.. hur..)

but well, what have i been doing?
MUG! what else! ( in mugging we trust)

and there is also the light fun - volleyball spikes for like close to 1 hr each day! haha plus yesterday's unwind time where i went to unwind wif the neighbours through vball game! haha woo... played with my indian neighbours! haha suddenly i see a great difference between india and China. haha... yea it's just that philos in such a game. You get to see a cross cultural difference.

and... looking at people's blog: chang yuan's just the inspirational one. woo go on bro! :) and then, it's crystal's ( disappoint me always... never update... :P ) and shok mei's ! woo her's rox. KUTLESS. ha and then today occasionally popped into jasmine's blog ( lots of pictures!!! ahhh! and ooo.. a sexy jasmine pic! =X ) so pervertic ( that's me...) .. hhaha nah and then my own blog -.- see tag replys lah! =X

else, i took photographs- two stupid ones: to show how muggy i am:

hahha guess which chapter is that smudged thing? =P if u can get it, woo u're gonna get an A for ur maths. if cannot, dun worry, u're just normal. =D jk jk..

okie woo study destress really is so heavenly. now what?

lunch --> econs ---> GP!!!!!

hahaa i wonder why there is a low demand for study, but the supply is still so freaking high!! hhaha oh yes, merit good. haha... but stress is a demerit good!

good arguement? =)

econs: U

The Final Series - The Journey Continues

2006-09-23T18:44:00.000-07:00

In this final part of my 3 part series, i will be talking about how this past 1 year has been for me. And at the end of this series, if you felt something stirring within you, or if this article has blessed you, please email or tag! anyone can tag or email! :)

Eventually, i told my parents that i was a Christian. I remember it was at Dunman food centre. And I was prepared to carry the cross from that day onwards. The moment i told my mum, i thought she would be very angry, but no, she was not. Instead, she asked me to select my religion wisely. Although she has not acknowledged me as a Christian till now, I pray that this day will come.

What's next? I went for my first church service. Rather afraid and fearful! yeap, and anxious too. But it was more of fear than anxiety. And yes, i waited for Cliff to come. At the same time, I had to make sure my parents dun see me! haha yeap... now to make things worse, Cliff came late. so I waited very long there. Eventually, we went up around 11am, after a full 45 mins of wait. God is a comforter, and the moment i ended the church service, i just felt like staying for even longer! now, going church is like literally a slow evening jog. haha i just want to go. :)

Eventually, i started to attend cell group meeting. My first cell group meeting, i was so popular. =P cliff asked me to go to his, and another TK girl who went to cornerstone, Jasmine, she also asked me to go to hers. hhaha but eventually i chose Cliff's coz i was closer to him than jasmine. i din really know Jasmine then.

And then, I finally went for my first 1 big day this year. yeap, it was a mere short 10 mins there. Coz i queued up for like 20mins. haha! slow, but WHO CARES! :D can go can liao. =P yeap, it was fun. The music was blaring loud, but u just felt like singing. it's just so nice to be there! :)

This month, September, marks the first anniversary. i am really waiting and just beholding the second anniversary! =) praise God for faith to keep me for a year. Now, we're going on. :)

At times, being Christian, i forget to take a perspective from the unbeliever. Well, I won't regret being a Christian. Although every Sunday and Saturday, I have to burden myselves for church and every morning, i have to wake up 1 hour beforehand to pray and read the Word, i still prefer being a Christian. God has really kept me away from many unnecessary trouble and through prayer and the Word, i believe i will find my life purpose and go on to help many others. I also have gotten to know great people - my Christian brothers and sister - and also great people like Isaiah and Pastor Dan ( which the Strait Times never ever know about ) who have helped me greatly in my life and are so bent on helping others. Though i might have lost some freedom, i think it's the freedom that i rather lose-The freedom to break the law, the freedom to lust, the freedom to scold vulgarity, the freedom to be carnal- i rather lose them.

God took me from the depths of destruction and turned me from a anti-Christ to a person that runs for God everyday. I believe He can do the same to you. He gives you support and gives you hope when you need them. He is there for you. Last time, I felt like i lacked something. Even when i was in the EXCO and could balance my studies very well, i felt depressed. I felt that i was underperforming. I felt that there was something missing in my life and in my heart that could only be accomplished by getting more achievements. And Satan was kind to me, he just let me achieve and I got everyting that i could get, plus much more pride and much more unhappiness. But after Jesus came to my life, despite my circumstances, I can smile and feel happy every morning. I dun need a reason to smile. I just need Jesus. S

Similarly, if you are feeling sad or you feel that something is missing, perhaps you need to come to Christ. You need to just open your hearts and just hear Him. You dun need to do anything but just open your heart and believe in Him. You might feel, oh, I am so unworthy. Well do you think i am more worthy than you when Jesus came to save me? No, I am equally unworthy. BuT God will forgive us, because at the cross, the blood that Jesus shed has paid for our sins. We are declared sinless the moment we accept Jesus! :)

I invite you, whether you are a Buddhist or Hindi or Taoist or any other religion or race, if you believe, just close your eyes and call out to Jesus, just as i did that night. He will come to you. if only you believe.

And if you do respond, please email me or tag! :) i will so like to hear from you! :)

to know more about this magnificient God that i have, i have a link to Cornerstone and you can just click it to get there! =)

so as we end this, I wish you all the best in your life and may you...prosper? =X haha. see you guys!

Journey to Truth, a Walk of Faith Part 3

2006-09-20T04:44:00.000-07:00

haaa yeap, in the previous article, i talked about how I came to know Christ through a rather peculiar way and interesting way. In this article, i wanna talk to you guys about how my infant days as a Christian was like.

After i today's reading of the Foundations of the Faith by Paul G. Caram, I learnt one thing. That at salvation( that means at the point in time when you recognise God and let Him enter your heart), you have imputed righteousness. That means, God makes you righteous but you are not made righteous yet. Righteousness has then got to be learnt through experience and by following God's will for you life.

After getting to know Christ, i refused to place myself in a church. One is the fear of having to commit to a church, which i thought then would be insane. Yes, i had the thought that going to church was something as a future. I can grow as a Christian even without the Church. just me and God and a private growth. i thought so too, but one night, as me and Shok Mei was searching for a church, for me, it was perhaps just casual browsing and looking around, I came upon Cornerstone Community Church. It was just a 2 mins walk away from my house. And living there for close to 10 years, i din even know a church existed there. At that moment, i knew that God was trying to tell me something.Oh, I may say, I din recognise that as something God said, but on hindsight, i felt God spoke to me that day. I emailed the church, just wanting to know more. From then on, life was like Xbox 360: One big change.

It was a friday, I went to the church cafe (of course without my parents knowing it yet ) and met up with two complete strangers. Yes, I was meeting up with two complete strangers. Two people whom I don't even know who they are. Yet, at the first look, they recognised me. They came up and said hi to me. :) Pastor Daniel and Isaiah. They were great. They just seemed super super on to see me and they got very excited. Both of them sat down and asked me how I got to know Christ. haha.. the interesting part: no one of my age ever did what i did: emailing the church asking them to intro me to the church ( as said by Pastor Daniel) hhahaa.. then pastor daniel went off first to do some things. I sat down with Isaiah. He treated me coffee. AHH I MISS OLIVE BRANCH COFFEE. but now it's gone.. haiz. :( hhaha yeap so that's not the point. I received my Assurance of Salvation and sat down to chat with Isaiah. haha he told me his story: how he knew Christ. hahha I wun write it down as yet.. =P later part. yeap and I got very inspired. After that he just brought me around the Church. From the main hall to the main office. i got to know some staff. but i din get to meet pastor yang in person. hhaha i'm just super fascinated by pastor yang.

Well, i din really had an intention to stay on in that church. What eventually made me stay was the very first sermon i heard: the Nature of Temptation. yeap. and at that moment i was dealing with the problem of Lust. nice coincidence? =) yeap... that moment something just struck me that if i stay on in Cornerstone, my life would never be the same. I listen it a lot of times. Everyday when icame back from school and any time when i had free time, i just listened to it and jut enjoy it. That sermon and it's verses became my weapon against lust. Everytime I tread along that path where me and the girl met often, I just played that sermon and just soak in the presence and protection of God. I felt quite a few times: at times I would be so tempted to just meet the girl again. At time I was just so tempted to just go to her house. But God's word just rang in my head. Well, at that time, I was pretty much like an unsaved person: vulnerable and easily attacked. But God still kept me strong; his Word and his protection.

It took me a month or so to get over. After a month, my desire to see that girl weaken. I no longer wanted to see her that much. With much more faith and after i started to engage in prayer and quiet time, I no longer desire to see her. But friends, I just wanna say: Don't get yourself messed up with Lust. It took quite some effort to get over it, and after that, you have to continually work it away until God let us have dominion over lust. yeap... so till here bah, igtg now.. continue next time! please stay tune and thanks so much for reading it..

Journey to Truth, a Walk of Faith Part 2

2006-09-17T04:45:00.000-07:00

hhhaa, if u guys read this, this is the second part of my testimonial. To read the 1st Part, Please go to here. and a little note to X girl : hey, i really am not trying to malu u or take revenge okie? I hope u understand, that I try to be as honest and also as discrete as i can. sorry about this!

yeap, so where was I? yeap, so our relationship started to turn bad. On one path, it got bad. On the other path, another spirit started to come up before me. The spirit of Lust. perhaps it wasn't so much growing, but rather, it suddenly surfaced. Yes, I suddenly got ensnare by the another girl. yea, and the worst part of all: I thought i liked her. Yes, so i rationalised something bad into something normal. Then it just begin my downfall. i became so hooked onto that girl that i came up with many stupid excuses so that i may see her every nite ( she lives near me) . Little did i know, everytime i see her, i got even more attached to her. The temptation to see her in shorts grew even more intense. very soon, i slipped into much more disgusting stuffs: fantasizing, intimacy and stuffs. Back then, life was a wreck. I came home everyday, one part feeling guilty about doing this even when i had someone attached to me already. But the other half of me tells wants to get my carnal desires satisfied. i wanted to see more of her( the girl, not X ). Often, the i followed my carnal desires.

The most defining moment was when i told X that i like the girl. And I remember, at that moment when i called her, she screamed into the phone. That was the first time i ever heard a girl screaming into the phone. And I could sense her anger and all her hurt. But my carnal desires made me say: " hey, we're done through. get over it" I waited for 10 seconds, then she put down the phone. And as i sat down, i realised, oh no, what have i done. I felt guilty. I tried to rationalise it. I couldn't. It was terrible. Then, i smsed the girl. And we met up. She was very pissed off also. but she still met up with me. Torn between what is right, and what can satisfy me, my mind was completely messed up. Together with mounting pressures of my studies and at that time, my relationship with my parents were not at it's best.

Perhaps it was the regular bible reading that i was doing, I seemed to still have sight of what was right. I kept my desires down for a moment. Patched up my relationship with X. She was a person of great forgiveness. She forgave me even though I had done such a thing to her. We managed to get our relationship back on track - she treated me like a friend. i restricted myselves from seeing the other girl. To an extent of forcing myself to do so. But my mind, there were many voices in it.

And one day, X called me. It was what we did last time. I wanted to restore our relationship. yeap, but it din turn out well. The only thing I remember she said to me then was : " Kevin, u know what u need now? U just need to pray. " And then she put down the phone. I remember it so clearly, although it has been a year. I thought about it. And i started to follow what the Bible told me: to ask God. And i just closed my eyes. I din know how he looked like. How He was. I din even know whether he can hear me. I don't even know whether He exists. I just spoke to the air. I thought over it. And somehow, I begin to believe.

Small miracles begin to happen in my life: everytime i met face to face with a decision that I could not make, I was not sure, or that there were too many voices in me, I just cried out to the Lord. I remember one such instance. DnT work was tough and I din know whether to go out with X as she had earlier called me to do so. And I just said (to Him): Should I go? If I should, show me something to tell me. If I should not, show me that i should not. And God did. The next day, though I canot remember exactly what happened, i just remembered that I did not go. And perhaps, it was a good choice. I finished up all the work that I had. For the first time in so many months, in peace.

Many things just happened. I just asked the Lord everytime when it happened. I just sought for him. For his wisdom, for his revelation. He was faithful, he was merciful, even with my sin, he was merciful and graceful. Eventually, one night, while I was in my room, just pondering on these amazing stuffs that had happened. i decided to take a step of faith. I accepted Christ. No lah, i din like blurt our the sinner's prayer. I said to myself: " I welcome you." I believe during then, he just stepped into my heart. I smsed X. Boy, she was overjoyed. The first time since so long.

I tried to patch things up with her. Nothing much really happened then, eventually, me and X's relationship cooled off and we kinda just din contact each other for sometime. We stopped contacting each other. Just right, the O Levels came. It ended, and from then on, we just went our separate paths. She is in TJC now, I never really got much chance to tell her how much I thank her for bringing me to Christ. I hope that as she reads this now, she'll know how grateful I am to her for what she has done.

As for me, the walk with God is going to be tough one. The first few steps are going to be giant steps. Many giant killers would be slain. The biggest one: Lust . Many things happened after this walk of faith. I din want to go church at first until 18 years old. But how did i end up in Cornerstone eventually? How did i strengthen my faith and how did i tell my parents about this decision? Stay tune. More coming up in the following days.

Journey to Truth, A Walk of Faith

2006-09-16T08:12:00.000-07:00

woo.
hhaha this month marks the first anniversary with God. Before i start, let me set the tone right. yes i admit, initially i written this thing to kinda like make it look HOOHAH about this all, but i thought about it and yea, i think it's kinda nice to actually track back on how i came to Jesus and track some of the hardest times and the sweetest times that this decision has made.

I don't know how I first came to know about Him. Perhaps it was after Shok Mei decided to become a Christian then I started to really take notice of it. I admit, i was very irritated then- why did so many people want to turn to Christ?! Then, I see the cross as a cult. Everything back then looked very bad whenever i see the cross. And i started to search out for my OWN religion - buddhism. yeap, i started to get crazy. After my trip to Chiangmai, i bough a wooden buddha figure. kinda wanted to worship it. I was so agitated with Christianity back then. Then, i started to read up on buddhism books. I started to praying to buddha every night before I slept. I was struggling with my own character then. I din know who i really was and i wanted to be that super popular guy among gals. That was what i wanted to be back then. And i prayed to buddha that he would transform me to that.

But well, the campaign was short-live - after one week, that buddha figure just collected dust. i no longer looked after it. And then, i started to go back to self-help books. I read up on it almost everyday. I kinda worship it if u wanna look at it another way. yeap it did help, a lot in fact. Many things were happening back then - My dad's relationship with my aunt turned sour after having a good relationship with her for about 20 over years over my cousin's shop rental; i suddenly had to started adapting to a life where i no longer returned to my aunt's house after school. Everything came so fast i din know what to do. The self help books was helping me, but at the same time, it draw lots of energy coz I was busy trying out their methods. Then there was this day, while packing my stuffs, i chanced upon the Holy Bible. i din know what strength it was that made me pick up that book and bring it all the way back to my house, without being discovered. Perhaps, if i din pick up that book that day, things would be different now. but i am glad i did.

I started reading it. Page by page, word by word. I read Genesis first, coz like any unsaved man, i read it like a story book. Then suddenly i started to understand a little about Adam and Eden and what the Adam's apple was. =P interesting. every night i just read. And one day I heard a voice to ask me to pray. And i did it. I just sat there. I din know what to say. Oh, and that time iwas in a relationship with X ( for her sake, i axed out the real name). It was all good but i could not cope with the pressure of that relationship. Also, I just put down my council duties and back then, council had been my source of joy for the last two years. It also kept me busy enough to think of the pressing needs at hands. And suddenly - all the things that had been keeping me strong and going was gone. But, I just went on. And just when ithought things were at it's worst state, it wasn't. It was just about to get even worse: the spirit of Lust came upon our relationship.

So what happened eventually? How did i tide it through? How did Christ came in such an Anti-Christ atmosphere? Are you going through the same thing? Stay Tune.

1st Anniversary. with GOD.

2006-09-14T05:18:00.000-07:00

This month marks the first 1 year of my New life after accepting Jesus into my life. I will mark this big decision with a short write up on how I got to know Him. Coming this weekend, hope it brings blessings to people who read it! :)

wonderful friday

2006-09-02T23:52:00.000-07:00

be yourself day photos!

haha.. suddenly had some shots from be yourself day. I didn't really got the shots until a few days ago, so yea, I'll might as well let you guys see. haha since i have the mood to upload it today! :) (right, the wonderful mj0072 team and the wonderful 06s210)

teacher's day bbq photos

( left: suppose to be a serious shot.. but.. / right: a nite at lau pa sat together with performers malik and fren + group members albertus and meng hui. albertus looks seductive =P )

SUCCESS! at Lau Pa Sat
yes we finally completed our trial at Lau Pa Sat. All in all 44 surveys, little but I think we tried our best already, did what we can, if cannot the never mind. jamiel and daryl went up to play at first. they started off with nice songs. haha of which, my fav by LifeHouse- You and Me, another song that i only started to like it after it was played, some song by 3 Doors Down. whee! i really liked friday. din find it like a drag because had nice music playing while we did the survey! :) yeap i met some very crude rejectors, like this ang moh gal, i thot she would let me as a few questions, but instead, she gave me this rude rude face and was like rather pissed. yeap.. then the rest others not so bad. got this China gal that did my survey, and i think think she din understand my survey qns. hhaha but lala who cares. =X hhaa 44 surveys and counting! :) MY DAD CAME DOWN! whee! =) hhaha thanks dad! and yeap erm although malik's guitar didn't work, we were still very happy about the results. ( sorry malik! )
mj0072, WHOOSH!

oh well, i've added a new song to go with this new template. KISS ME! haha no lah, I am not getting horny. just that it came to my mind suddenly when i wanted to get a song for my template. hhha hope you enjoy it!

just in case u like it so much, here are the lyrics:
Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.

[Chorus:]
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tireBring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map
[Chorus (repeat)]

enjoy it!

pre teacher's day

2006-08-31T19:39:00.000-07:00

happy belated birthday sis! =) hahaa.. 31st Aug was my sis birthday.

phew finally, the spetmeber study break is here. i wanna make full use of it. :) mug mug mug and mug. :) ahhaa... go marine parade library mug. go starbucks paya lebar. ahhh my fav haunts. maybe even esplanade library?

teacher's day celebration @ mj
wah, i'm really beginning to love the performance at mjc. i dunnoe why people can get bored over it. yes I agree there were some portions of it that really, u would wanna sleep. but boy, it was just pure music performance. high quality. and we also had the comfort of the airconditioner. yea, i know, in jc, we are "supposed" to get high quality performance, but i think that on the part of the performers, they get LESS practice time. so it's really a feat that they were doing so well. hhaha.. kudos to JUN XIAN. haha... yeap, i'm so glad that he is doing something that glorifies God. though not in a very direct way, but in a way, by using the gifts that God has given to him. :) so glad. and yes, I really like his songs. haha including the one that he created himself. kudos to galvin and chermaine too. they were good too. nice coordination and galvin really can reach that very nice pitch. not some coarse and scary voice. as for the "higher" band, yeap, they were good too. they really touched on the genre that was so difficult to sing, and though not really good when compared to americans, they were still n a class of their own. :) hhaha and council dance. dah lah. nice =P hhahaa.... iris can dance man =X although she looks a little sluggish.

teacher's day visit @ tkss
haha and after that I went back to tkss. yeap, met up with ex tk folks and started to chat up with them. saw karan, anil, wei jin ken khoon, shu rong. wah. hhahah yeap then the 4c clique as usual, we went to eat western food and then started to talk for quite long. hha fiona was there too and then uraina also went back. she cut her hair. shoulder length. hahaa not bad. =P hahaa yeap but anw, so later charmaine told me that my photo was at the board downstairs?! haha so i went to take a look together with the 4c folks. then dear fiona teo mei shan, did this nice "artpiece" for me ( comments added by me! )

oh well. haha bt i din like it coz it's like faded. it looked nicer somewhere else.. =X hhaha.

the devil wears prada

then, after we ate, got happy we zoomed off to watch the show. we wanted to watch lil boy, but lil boy was not available?! =X argh. nvm.. so yea, we went to watch the devil wears prada( why prada? not guuci, not LV not manalo blahnik? )

for your viewing pleasure:

boy yes, it was nice you bet. haa bt it's kinda plain and boring if u din really liked nice clothes and stuffs. coz the story plot is kinda normal, the build up, then the turning point, then the end. haha but yea it was a nice entertainment for a change. =)

bible studies at space out
then we had bible studies at space out. yesterday was a very distracting day, because lots of people talking radio music. =X yeap but nonetheless the presence of God was strong within us. :) hahah the verse that we studied about:

but the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure, then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. ( james 3:17)

just thinking about it. if this is true, it means that if the world asks us to strive, we pull back. we dun set high ambitions. we set targets and pray to God for strength to reach it. yeap, purity.. peaceable... sensitive to others.... merciful... impartial and sincere. I'm especially weak at being impartial and used to be a little insincere at times. I think i've been programmed in a way that i am doing things not for a purpose, but for the routineness, for the pleasure it brings. there is no purpose in somethings that i do. yeap.. being impartial. I must start reaching out to the "poor". yes i must. then the final verse:

if any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God. who gives generously to all without finding fault and it will be given to him. ( james 1:5)

yeap and it just impacted me. wow. God is great!

class bbq at vaib's house.
finally we had a little event to bond everyone together. think too muc of the running about here and there has left a lot of us really not very bonded to one another. but yesterday we finally had an event to bond everyone together. to get everyone together and just party to the music. haha lots of gay stuff happened. but yea. ( oh i think i wrote this before? ) yeap..

okie that's all!

another week had gone by.

2006-08-26T08:12:00.000-07:00

oceans will part
this song keeps coming back and forth in my mind. I first heard it when I went to my church's gen 5 zone service. it was just amazing. just hit on and yeap, the chorus part sent the people to tears. I'm finding this song!

this week
hhaa. i'm just super touched by every morning's quiet time. just love it so much. haha waking up like 5 am and spending 1 hour just in praise and then worship. wow, it's just great. very nice, keeps me on track for the whole day. haha best of all is can have my early morning shower.. =p best of all is my parents dunnoe about it yet. =X my mum dun like me to take shower in the morining. haha another trivial point. nvm.

interhouse games!!
3rd for Vball, 1st for Dball.
Vball was very intense, we were off form that day totall off form. yeap. and that's how we lost our first and second position :( and had to settle for 3rd or 4th. haiz. yeah thinking back I think it's kinda wasted lah. coz a lot of balls just ended up at my spot there and I just din take it. reaction-wise. how to train leh? hmm I htink must do foot work. today while playing I tried footwork, but i think footwork is not that impt, unlike in badminton, coz vball is juz a game of concentration. and then response. must be chao quick. yeap, starting to like vball a lot, although it's like very stress and very fast. at times play liao I also quite blur. ahaha yeap, but we made it through against triton, 26-24. Close fight. real close fight indeed. but yeap, we pulled through and make it to the finals. zi bin is the man!! he took most of the balls, and I helped, just one ball over. kia tar also set quite well, all quite to the place! :) yeap, though din get first ( florence team got 1st!! ) hhahha but then yea, I learnt quite a lot liiao. :) happy.
dball? hhaha it was just by grace, by mercy. =P hhaha we just caught the crucial glimpses, God poured out his blessings, and we got first. but no doubt, atlas, close fight, henry almost hit me, but he stepped on the mid line and got eliminated. that was how lucky we were. and we played just two games to get into the finals. it was super intense though.

sleep less learn more
haiz, this is jc life. ha well have been sleeping at 9:30 pm nowadays? so wake up very early to do work and then go to sleep at like 9:30 pm. I think next time I sleep at 10:30 liddat and then start doing work at 4am the next day. beetter right? haha k lah must get more rest.

so this is it! :) hha

experience.

2006-08-19T00:23:00.000-07:00

experienced.
finally, a breakthrough in my volleyball. yeap, I am starting to get balls, though i need to train hard on my first ball. yeap, but today, other than my spiking I am like off-form for the others. haha but today's training was like very nice, although I really missed the first few serves. din manage to serve across. I think have to train on my mental strength. I'm kinda swayed easily by my circumstances. perhaps I shouldn't stress myself that much. :)

experience.
a volleyball breakthrough, in a way that callisto won the first league against miranda, triton and phobos. yeap, I believe it was the Lord who prepared me for this volleyball. all my serves were nicely executed. i need to train hard on my setting. it's really struggling. hahaa... my dig is quite stable i guess, now is more on maintaining. I have to train on open spiking now because shu de say the coach is training me for open spiking position. WHEE. hha.. i dunnoe about the center. but I think i dun have the height. hahha chula can take the centre. =P but need to train his spike. kia tar can set well! =P hahaa... weijie... hmm kambate! =) wei jia's firstball not bad. even the coach also say so. hahaha....

L.O.S.E.
Lack of Sleep Everytime. yeap, I chionged through maths on thursday night, all thank to the the strength the Lord gave me. :) I managed to cover my vectors well, but only had 2 hours of sleep+ 30 mins maybe because i slept at around 5:45 tp 6:15. hhaha... so the whole friday was very tired: I dragged myself around. Wanted to come home early to sleep on friday, but what happen was that i had to complete my spa so I din really get the sleep i wanted. :(

then, the week.
please remind me to do these:

call dentist to fix lower braces ( monday? )
complete "be yourself day" proposal
study physics to prepare for lecture test
PW to call the manager for MuChuan and change date for the meeting with Patrick.

yeap. my week, aiyah, a little sian. haha but yea.. that's what it is lor. haha!

anyway, I am lazy to blog long entries. so I shall go! see ya!

overcoming

2006-08-12T08:35:00.000-07:00

can a guy overcome?
that's what i've been thinking of for this time.

today went to zone service. had to leave halfway, in the middle of worship and everything. :( yeap i really din wan to leave but i had no choice. can i overcome the inner voices that pull me back?

do guys naturally love to oogle at gals? that's a question i am asking. or is it just guy's natural's reaction when they see a gal? is there any guy that can say bravely he has overcome the temptation to oogle at gals? can i overcome it?

bondage to my past beliefs. used to belief greatly in peace and order. now that my life is kinda peaceful, there's no more contentment. i renew myself before Christ! whee! :) yes and there is contentment. can i break free from my past beliefs? a belief that is so lethal- blaming your parents for all that you are now. as robb thompson said in his book: our parents have taken us this far. the next part of your life, let God take you. can i overcome my past beliefs?

can i overcome my past sins? can i overcome them?

God, speak as you would speak.

:) You rock.

questioning.

2006-08-11T19:20:00.001-07:00

woah, so fast, this long long holiday is coming to an end. haii :( hhaha and i haven done much yet. At least those that i want to finish i have not finished. ;( yeap. so far i've done a little bit on econs, a little bit on chemical equilibrium and a gone through my oscillation notes. have written my own oscillation notes though. hope to do it by today, maybe at night.

yesterday nite gave myself a big break. hahaha i wanted to use it to play my guitar, but unfortunately, that thing is out of tune. hahha I am trying to pick up guitar. whee. love playing the guitar. yeap, so I went to friendster. haha and started reading blogs.

question 1: why do i keep on reading girl's blog?
haha, i dunoe why, but i just keep on reading girl's blog. i can't find any guy's blog that can get m excited, except for clement's poem. ( link from shok's diary, but i dunnoe him) and mr cheong's blog. hahhaa.. but he din update since yesterday. so I've been reading the same stuff over and over again.

question 2: why is guy's blog so difficult to find?
answer: 1. guys dun like to link here and link there -> so it's difficult to get guy's blog address
2. guys dun like to write blogs.
3. most of my guy frens do not have blogs

haaha, so get the answer? and then i suddenly thought of 1 question.
hafiz says that I am a flirt ( in a joking tone )

so, question 3: Am i a flirt?
answer: well what defines a flirt? is a flirt a person who love toking to girls? or is a flirt a person who talks to girls that YOU want to talk to, but got no balls? =P hahah no lah, not tit-for-tat. but then yea, even if one likes to talk to girls, i think that's pretty much people's character. yeap, as for me, i guess i talk to girls coz i see them around? i do talk to boys too hello?! hhaha just that you did not notice. =x

recently, my house became very quiet after my sis left for her hostel. haha yeap.. then came this new question: am i playing a part in my family?
answer: I guess I tried to play my part during my secondary school. tried hard to get the two old folks going. but i learnt one thing: no matter how hard you try, the other party must also have the willingness.but my parents they're not motivated enough to do it. as in they dun see the need. and over the yaers, i learnt that it's kinda like this in a lot of families. haha so i just pull back a little. haven really given up. just toned down and looking for a right time. :)

yea... haha. am i stress?
answer: perhaps i am. but this is JC life. 2 years of it and it'll be gone yea ? =) hahha. guess i got to really sit down and look at what i must take out of my life. i decided to tone down on psp. and probably put my psp in some place that icannot see it. yea.. and helping my mum to do a little bit of housework. but i going to step up on my morning quiet time ;) haha i just love those moments of my morning quiet time. :)

yeap, and i guess i gtto start picking up a new hobby to do during my mid study quiet time. haha else really I'll just waste my time looking at people's pic in frenster or re-read people's blog. hahaha

isaiah, cell group leader, once said this to me: at times, you have to ask yourself honest questions.

food for thought.

for those who just woke up, please eat ur breakfast. :)

questioning.

2006-08-11T19:20:00.000-07:00

it

2006-08-05T06:59:00.000-07:00

finally, national day holiday. :) yeap, the long awaited holiday. :)

this weel is pretty scary - monday was really suffering from sunday's indigestion. yeap, felt a little indigested and I think had diarrhoea for like 2 times in the day? and was very very lethargic. almost wanted to go home, but had to do my test. yes I have to do it, coz i must finish it and get over it. yeap, I just had to drag myself along for the whole day.

tuesday was the same. just felt very tired, and also a little distracted. aah! coz later had vball training to go with. but then the sad thing was the coach din cum, so it was like one of those recre trainings ah, very very slack de. haha just set and spike those stuffs. haaa. that tues was kinda a little upset coz i lost my spiking rythmn. din manage to get it back though, till today. hahaa yeap but I am happy i got it back so yeap. :) smile!

wednesday? hha study day lah. after school went to study with kia tar. the wei jie pangseh. :( . but I kinda dun like wednesdays. coz it's like, no cca? then my other classmates all have cca! so I am like so lonely lah. I dunnoe whether to eat lunch or not, like so lonely. hhhaha but at least got kia tar to pei wo! haa! =P hhha then later after that i saw eliz in the library. then study lor. oooh! hhaha eliz is a christian! whee! another fren! ;D hhaha

thursday? had SPA test. had handwriting crisis again lah. so it generally just okie okie lah. :) hha and thursday was mad day lah. suppose to hand in a lot of hmwk on fri, but still i went to play. needed the rest. haha phew i am getting very tired liao lah. haha.. yeap i think today must rest early.

friday! haha had callisto badminton trials. very disappointing, coz it's like I thought i would get in, quite easily in fact and yea, i kinda cocky lah, coz I thought I definitely get in de. but then end up, it wasn't easy at all. had to vs. weiming and gary. and yiang meng almost on par with me too. then weiming is ex bad. player and gary is free rider. yeap so din get in :( very disappointed too. later after that had match with nicholas, another christian fren! =) hahah just met him that day. then yeap he got into the trials, backup for albertus! =) hhaha so happy for him, but he is good lah. yeap, but thursday really learnt the lesson of humility. hah how to be humble and stuffs.

today? haha had 2 new st. hilda's secondary folks come over and play with us. hha they're good, but according to bowen and ronald, st. hilda's sec players all quite good. so yes, there u are. haha! =) but today was fun, just that i kinda have some muscle tear and ache now. very pain =X

that's all for this week? =x haha tired ler wanna go rest! see u guys another day!

17th birthday

2006-07-30T06:27:00.000-07:00

whee! I am 17 from today onwards! :)

hhahha! yeap, today was great. :) hahaa it's two years in a row, celebrating my bdae with God. yeap, i went to church today. I din noe why, but I was just like crazy and mad in church. jumped up and down left and right, and shouted here and there! it was just like bathing in the presence of God. :) haha i just love it! :) hahaa and Pastor Chris message was indeed an impactful and funny one! he brought it across very well! :) hhahaa! the devil is a liar!!! =) yeap, for the first time I cried at the altar call! =x hhaha... yeap.. I think I can speak in tongues a little, while at the altar call. yeap... lots of things happened at the altar call! :) really dun regret going down there!

anthony was wif me today! =) haha I hope he was touched too. haha talking about anthony, so paiseh that I spoiled his PSP. =X ahhh! >< I feel so guilty man =X coz I was trying to do the hard gay ramen thingy, then I think my hand kind of slapped his psp away. then his on off button spoil! =X oh man!=x then must go sony repair? X argh. =X yeap. ahhh so paiseh. I dunnnoe what to do now also! help! :(

yeap, but today was great. hha.. wished I had more time lah, and perhaps I really should not have took my psp out. coz kinda segregated nasir from me and anthony, and yea, I din really get a chance to talk wif him, well like we did last time. but still, we did talk a little :)

I kinda think these are the two frens that are going to stick wif me till the end lah. :) I am so glad that I have these fren. :) hhha.. yeap :)

now I am tired, but have lots of work to catch up. plus there's something wrong my stomach. I think is indigestion =X coz i din walk around after eating. =X so yea. haa should be okie by tmr lah I guess. :)

went marina square today! haha! the newly renovated marina is kinda nice, at least nicer than last time! :) whee! hhaha must go back there if I can again! to see all the shops. quiksilver and ripcurl was there too! :) haha yeap.

okie gtg! :) see u guys! :)

my sunday and saturday

2006-07-15T23:40:00.000-07:00

haha! :) I'm happy. lalaa

hhaha actually kinda look back at my old life, I'm think I am happier. :) haha which is good! all thanks to the Lord. ;) whee! hahaa. well in my Christian walk, I am praying hard for people around me - wei jie, crystal, my classmates and my family. yeap and just stepping up on prayers coz I finally know how i can help these people. :)

well this week is just been great. :) hhaha! really just pressing into stuffs that I had nvr pressed into. Starting to focus on my studying. I think now friday afternoons, I cannot just let it go off like this. Need to start revision. And if I cannot do anything on friday afternoons, at least i have friday nites to do revision. yes, my results will be out on monday. Will have to show it to my parents, yet I don't really care whether or not they will be happy. Well, at least for my dad I know he is going to force me to go to maths tuition, my mum will be nagging at me, but hopefully she wun start saying that I am 'distracted'. I am going to trust Lord in this. :)

Saturday? haha! well pretty boring. just doing GP hmwk for GP tuition n went to GP tuition! =P then went Sakae Sushi. haha! yum yum. ever since my dad retrenched, i've not been going to restaurants for big meals. :) helping to save some money here and there, but yesterday was the exception. there was hardly any sushi that I like on the conveyor belt.! :( argh my salmon, my sharksfin! :( argh! so pissed at first, then later when I got my bento set, GEEZ. I dun care liao =P yeap then went to scoopz. =) i c e c r e a m. haha! lemon and choc. =P whee choc was so nice. lemon was really sour! =X but i love it! =P hahha. then came back...... just din wan to talk to anyone then, coz I wanted to take a rest. =)

Today, well I've really been thinking about life. I kinda like my life now. haha not rushing here and there for council stuff. just enjoying............ busking in my own free time. getting into God's will. wow it's just amazing. :) yeap. :) so went for vball with wei jie, that guy, say 7 am, and he got up at 8 am. =P + a free load of bullshit! =P haha ... that's him =P hahaa. okie just jking. =P then we went to mac's for breakfirst =P hot cakess! wipee! :) hhaa then went back. wanted to buy this quiksilver FAKE pants but then there's not nice colour and people kinda know it's fake, yea, so din buy! =X hahaa.

whee! 30th july is cuming. BEHOLD =P

a week. in a Blorg.

2006-07-09T05:47:00.000-07:00

Well, i just did not blog for a week. Just been busy with life - School, SMSing, God and Volleyball. haha so , i'll just blog everything at one shot, how about that? =P

Wednesday, finally got back to school life. After a month of not being doing the routine stuffs, i kinda forget what it was to do the routine stuffs. Things like taking MRT on wednesdays, doing hmwk in the morning. =X haha this are the stuffs that I had to get back in tune wif. =P But wednesday was a good day - hhaha I was super happy, super 'on' that day. =) just like on steroids. =P but well I wasn't! OH and wednesday, there was no vball. So can u imagine it? =X we ended school prematurely. YES. the timing of 1:45pm ending school is freaky. Suddenly i dunnoe what to do, and had just nothing to do! hhaha so we had PW meeting all the way till 3pm, then I kinda lazed around till 4:00pm, zoomed back to house for BIBLE study at 5:00pm. hahha I'm so glad my dad isn't that mad at me being a Christian. =) haha yeap, and i think I shall repay that by doing well in my studies! :) Bible Study was impactful. It was just that verse that I needed. So timely. :) thanks isaiah!

Thursday, still haven get back to school life, but well, school was fun! =) hhaha started off just sub-pass standard. Enough to get along, chat along the way with Hafiz and Vaibz! haha vaibz is funny man and at times, lame and weird! =X so school just went on and on and on. Met wong ling keong. =P I think we're going be able to get along with him well. he's not that strict strict Chem teacher, but that kind of a little funny. =) just hope that no one attempts to stretch his patience. :) then had oral ---> I screwed my convo. The passage was easy - no difficult words to ponder about, all manageable. Then the convo, i dun think I can make it, I just could not find the correct words to get everything in place. So in the end, it sounded neither good nor bad. =X haha leave that to God! =P Then, had volleyball. =) yeap, i am happy. our volleyball team is getting bonded and getting gelled. :) everyone is starting to get 'on' the game and get going, and we are starting to bond with the main-6. :) yeap so nice. it's like everyone encouraging each other and helping each other. haha I learnt that from Isaiah. =) haa yeap and in the end I left early for the airport. hahaha to send my cousin off. :)

well what can I say. 10 over years? haha spent about the whole of my life with her and yeap, at times taking granted she's there. I am happy for her, that finally she can go overseas, and pursue her dream. I heard her plans, they're unconventional. But praise Lord that she is doing something for mankind. Giving help to mankind. :) God Bless you, Marlene. yeap and for that moment, at the gate, hahaha emotions ran high. my aunt broke into tears. yeap.. bt it's just a step in life. We can't really prevent that from happening. so embrace iT! :)

Friday. hhahha school. not very interesting to blog. =X but after that, went out with wei jie, jin yong and kia tar for movie. well, what happened was that there was just no time for the scary movie 4. Simply no time, so eventually, they watched Superman. hah and nope, I din watch wif them. Ate lunch with them, at guess where? PASTA MANIA. boy.. haha crystal just ate there. =X so qiao. but nvm, after eating there, I went to Life Bookshop. hahhaa i like the atmosphere there. =P saw some Tao Nan-ites there. =P Tao Nan Primary Revival? WOAH.! ;D hahaha then went home! haha! well, din see crystal there... :( but nvm, then forgot to get video cam from puneet! =X hahaha! scary....... hhaha but thanks to albertus, we got it! =P haha

Saturday - TK 50th Anniversary! haha the website up and coming. Got lots of stuffs that i have to do, bt yarp, i have a feeling this wun be a that good idea. =X Dunnoe, things are just not runnning as expected and the time left is short. =X btu well, it was nice going back to my alma mater and having something to do there! =P hhhaha! then went for dental. YEA. multi coloured braces! =P hhha! so fun... and the doc finally took out my lower mouth wire. the stupid wire! =X argh. hha but since it's out, have fun! =)

And then today. PW hahaa finally, i feel PW is getting on to some track. whee!! =) hah shall blog about what happen about this later. wanna get some work done first! =) see ya guys!

sentosa!!!

2006-07-03T07:46:00.000-07:00

haha I am back to my homeland - sentosa!! =P muhaha i just love it man! :)

hahaa yeap I went wif florence and crystal. only got to know crystal today though! just a few hours ago! haha yeap and I am the only guy, but surprisingly lah, I kinda love it. haha I mean, coz it's like u just hear flo and crys talk and yea, u just do ur own stuff. hah yeap kinda fun lah. haha and of course, two chio bus and sentosa. woah. =D hhaa AND last but not least, volleyball!! =D hhaha vball was like super fun today coz I played with this st. hilda's sec school team guy. haha and he teo shock when I told him that my name is kevin. coz their captain's name is kevin too! =X oh man . hhaha so qiao. haha!

yeap then after that it was just pure sun tanning. we played the ball pass around. then after that monkey. till florence's leg cramp =X haha water cramp. yeap and then later we just sat in the sea and talk lah. =p talk about anything lah. talk about marrying the seaweed and those stupid crap u know. =X hahaha it's just pure stupid stuffs =X yea but it was fun. and in the process getting tanned by the water. haha it's nice. it's like so cooling. hah then after cum out, yeap, we got super super super super super cold .=X I was cold too. =xhhaha yeap. then go bathe. MAN PALAWAN beach's shower is so so so nice! :D haha! yeap then after that we just went home lah. hha! =D

yeap and the best part about tanning is not the before but the after. haha it's like u have this nice brown tan and then u get to feel like woah the shower is nice and stuffs. :D hhaha very fun =) yeap. =P that's about it lah. haha!

and shit I skipped my lunch today. =X only had a nice japanese dinner. =Ph haha 9 bucks k!!! :( dun play play =P

my sunday!

2006-07-02T08:59:00.000-07:00

woo! haha this holiday is going to be real nice. :) hhaha tmr is out with florence and her fren at sentosa haha! tanning + vball! yea man! :Dhaha today was out with anthony for superman movie screening! =P

hahha super man is nice man :P haha u guys should catch it , but seriously there is hardly any plot lah =X haa and we got the super super super front rox seats man =P hhaha. sore necks. =P hahaa. yeap then walked around. went the new cathay! =D hha.

yeap then went anthony's house. watch HARD GAY =P no no dun get the wrong idea, I am not a gay or neither is this some gay movie. it's just a name. of a japanese comedian it's freaking funnny!! =X oh man! hhaha u guys should watch it on YouTube. =Phaha!

yeap that's all. yea tmr's sentosa!= Dhhaha really hope to enjoy it! :D

yeap that's all! =D see you all!

a stupid quiz. after too much study.

2006-06-25T03:24:00.000-07:00

A) LAST SONG SYNDROMe? His Love - Hillsong Australia!!! woah hillsongs rox.
B) FAVORITE SONG : I Wanna Be with You by Andrew! ( Christian Contemp.)
C) YOU WERE LAST SEEN AT? Long beach east coast seafood? =X
D) LAST PERSON YOU'RE WITH? God? WOAH!
E) LAST FOOD U ATE?# black pepper crab
F) ARE YOU FUNNY?# nope. I am more of lame.
G) WHO AM I THINKING OF RIGHT NOW? oh well, the last person I thot of , florence. haha ask her go sentosa after exams. see I thinking of after exams liao :P
H) WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?Cockroach?
I) CURRENT STATUS?single but not available!!
J) FAVORITE NUMBERS AND LETTER# 3 0 7 J U L ( my birthday mah! )
K) WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU DRANK?# Drink alcohol? NEVER. will bt not now. erm water is like 2 seconds ago?
L) OBSESSION? volleyball?
M) YOU HATE HIM/HER BECAUSE?# hahaa! nobody! for the bible say that we must love our neighbours and our enemies!! :)
N) YOU'RE? a jerk? =X hah! dunnoe lah. such weird question.
O) WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU GOT MAD AND TO and How? mY DAD. COZ he started nagging at me for not switching off the iron.
P) HE/SHE MAKES YOU LAUGH BECAUSE? mY sis, my cousin, chaijun, shok mei's blog coz they're funny? mad? lame? =X yeap.
Q) YOU HATE BEING? attacked?
R) YOU LOVE TO GO TO?# sentosa, marine parade library, cafes(quiet ones and serve ice mocha!)
S) DO YOU CRY OVER BOYS/GIRLS? oh i did, but I think quite stupid. over girls of course. over guys? no way!! =X
T) YOU______ WHEN SOMEONE GETS 2 UR NERVEs? pray? I dun like to throw tantrums!
U) YOU LAUGH AT SOMEONE WHEN? they look stupid? say a lame joke?
V) MY FRIENDS AND I LOVE TO? study? haha talk about lame stuffs. do lame jokes well erm go shopping for men's stuffs and oogle at girls? no lah we dun do that.
W) TOP 3 DRINKS YOU LIKE?# nescafe intense, erm plum juice, lime juice!
X) PERSON YOU WANT TO BE WITH? erm, isaiah? the girl?( haaha! the girl that well I haven met! )
Y) FAVORITE COLORS? pink, blue, orange
Z) LAST MESSAGE? hahaa. 64400231
[A is for age:] 1 more month to 17
[B is for booze of choice:] n/a
[C is for career:]haha fly a plane. design a new product! design a house!
[D is for your dog's name:] n/a.. haiz... :(
[E is for essential item you use everyday:] Good look hair wax?
[F is for favorite song at the moment:] Anything from HIllsongs!
[G is for favorite games:] volleyball, badminton
[H is for Hometown]# SINGAPORE. joo chiat.
[I is for instruments you play:]#guitar.. still learning, but first, let me tune it.. =P
[J is for favorite juice?]# PAPAYA MILK.
[K is for kids?:]# 2 enuff! :) hahaa
[L is for last hug?:]# ex?
[M is for marriage:] nope. erm.. maybe after uni.
[N is for your name?:]# Ang Qi Ye Kevin
[O is for overnight hospital stays:]1st day of birth
[P is for phobias:]# sea?
[Q is for quote:]# For God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, love and of a sound mind.
[R is for biggest regret:]# erm, not communicating enuff wif my parents.
[S is for s ex:] ABSTINENCE!
[T is for time you wake up:]# 7:45?
[U is for underwear:]# byford underwear.
[V is for vegetable you love:]# kangkong ( stupid shok mei copy me! :( )
[W is for worst habit:]# personal. cannot say.
[X IS FOR X RAY ]# my teeth there. ha! unique right? =P only those braced people have.
[Y is for yummy food you make:]# korean food. anything!!!!
[Z is for zodiac sign:]# snake

hhahaa improvement to this quiz:

After finishing, think of 3 people to Tag to....
Got it? they are:
Meryl !!
Chang Yuan !!
Florence!! if she reads....

that's all!!!

stone grilled beef

2006-06-24T07:20:00.000-07:00

I am not supposed to be blogging lah. but as u know, I had a very very good dinnner. it's at this very nice restaurant, recently opened, near my house! =)

it's chao cool.
they have this volcanic rock, imported from australia. and then they just give u a piece of raw meat or seafood. then the freaking hot rock will cook for u. right there. in front of ur big fat eyes. *phisssssssshhhhh* yeap. yum yum! :) hhaha.

i selected the specialty dish - prime of the land. then came this big red dot. fat, but rather small, something like ur "man tou". ha! then the guy kinda explaining to us how to cook it! haha so fun yeap. and yes!when u put the meat into ur mouth, it was so freaking freaking tender, juicy and nicee!!! >< awww!!!!!!

yes! yes! hhaha and the restaurant kinda nice. :) haha I love it.
I wanna go there again, well if i have the money. but set lunch is cheap : $8.90. anybody wanna go there wif me for lunch? =P hahaa.

for more info: http://www.stonegrill.com.sg

yummy!

camp synergy!

2006-06-22T07:42:00.000-07:00

camp synergy.
wow. i really dun regret going to camp synergy --> it was impactful and memorable. it was there that yes, we forged stronger bonds between our classmates and we are now much stronger than who we think we are. :) yeap. I dunoe what to say man, i mean I just feel so lucky and so priveleged to be part of the planning com. , to just be there, to be part of the group that was the driving force of the games and the meals and every ends that needs to be tied up here and there. :) yeap and jiat khee. she rox. she's the best log ic that i ever worked with. though first time, but yes, we are all X-men. we have supernatural strengths, bt we also have our own weakeness. yes, thank you God for this revelation. :)

haha so yes, we had the training camp. it was fun lah, I mean but that day for me was the most stressed one. firstly they used our sub-standard games and yea, the puzzles that i had was super difficult. and generally i was unprepared for my role. bad position to be in! =X hhaha but everything went well. we had training, bonding and stuffs. :)

second day of our camp, and the first day of Camp synergy, we held the games. yes! it went well. Everything just flowed smoothly and went well. and yes, i feel so glad and satisfied. thanks to yong huan and hong qi, although they had to take over my horrible IQ games, they managed to vary it and make it well. HONG QI U ROCK! SO DOES YONG HUAN! :P hahaa and all the games ic!! yea yea yea!! night games went nicely too! =) not much trouble, in fact, we had much time to slack and just reflect about the day. :) yum yum! best of all, we made 700 water bombs in say 4 hours?

second day of Camp Synergy, GAMES. just more games! haha it's like woah! the games were nice. during the playing though, me and hafiz managed to catch up on our work and do some chem. hhaha! then later we dressed up well and started to serve the people the buffet! =) yum! okie lah, i mean I not happy at first that not enough, but keep focus! : it's about them not us! :) yeap. hhaha performance night was nice!! ;D haha I was just super impressed with twhat the teams did and how the Grand auction went. it was nice! :) haha SHAMPOO! SHAMPOO! SHAMPOO! haha! Glowing stars!!!!! =xh haha!! yeap it was nice! =P

third day, sad day of break camp. haha I'm super glad that nick and the rest really appreciated what we did. seriously we din really put in that much, but together, put in 400% and delievered 500%. yeap, as whatt he camp synergy logo: 1+1=3 haha! =P

yeap so it's the end of Camp Syn. 06 , but also at the same time, the beginning of a new chapter of journey! =)

some photos!

the fabulous 210-ers!

the furballs and X-men

yeap! :) synergy oeeeiiii!!

study. that's all?

2006-06-16T08:38:00.000-07:00

ahha. well what can I update seriously, there is nothing much to update. btu just study.
study?

and i just watched russell peters. he is freaking racists, but if u go there to hear a little humour, it's fine. other than that, I am going for a night marathon. =) hhaha

I never tried it before. =P coffee, night marathon. woah! =P

intention. haha this word is ringing in my head.

me!bourne 2006

2006-06-12T06:23:00.000-07:00

me!bourne 2006.
hey guys! back from melbourne! reached at around 6:45 pm today, but yea, had to unpack everything and get some sleep. haa so i am here so late. :p oh wells, a picture speaks a thousand words, so:
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left:me, wei de, wei jie, jin yong, jing gui
right:black and white

left: thirsty for God?
right: love is a creative driving force

left: flinders street tram monitor
right: catholic church chair

left: gaylord restaurant
right: garbo.com.au

yeap I really wish to post more, but i've got 200 more to upload. so that's kinda going to take me sometime. :) but anw, yeap, too much words can kill! =P so now let me speak.

two most memorable thing.
well, I kinda miss my room culture. yea i agree though I din really fit into the jason and chee howe's group, I kinda enjoyed being with them and hearing their jokes. haha we went out shopping without the teacher's permission! =X and yea, kim and co. came to our room think twice at nite and we just had fun, ahd fun talking about everything. I was kinda quiet but then yea they were very caring and kinda looked out for one another. =) thanks guys. haha kim, mich, mel were nice too :) to me, mich was kinda quiet, ( but no doubt she is pretty) and yea speak when needed. erm mel was the scary luffter, and kim was the more spont. and funny gal! haha! yeap.. some photos of those days:

me n mel, kim n me, me n mich

the next thing that i miss is the buildings there. I love their designs: the simple contemporary or the rustic complicated buildings. it was great, I just love the way that the buildings were designed or how they looked! =)

yeap, and we went to the following places:

Capitol Theatre for the " Investor Hour" talk
Singapore Airlines Aussie Company
Ford Motor Discovery centre
Calton Brewery
Melbourne Markets
Queen Victoria Market
Monash University
Bridge Street

yarp it was great lah. :) keke!

so that's kinda all I have to blog about Melbourne. :) photos up soon! :) haha! see ya I wanna take a rest liao! bye!

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a week.

2006-06-02T08:58:00.000-07:00

thanks for the prayers, guys. :)
hey guys, just wanna say how grateful I am to those who have been in prayer for me, especially chang yuan and becky. :) I'm getting over her now, and yeap, thank you rebecca. :) you told me that frenship is much more precious than relationship. I am so happy that i have learnt. I am so happy that I have learnt and not let myself be overwhelmed by what I am "supposed" to react like. :) thank you! I think now I have much more courage to move on. :)

two guys under a roof.
I am wonder what it feels like to be under one roof with your dad. ONLY. hha yeap my mum and sis flew off for taiwan today, that means me and my dad. :) yeap it's kinda great, coz i can find sometime to keep my relationship up with my dad. haven really had time to talk to my dad these few years. we used to be very close to one another but somehow when I started to be too focussed on my studies, I kinda neglected this relationship. it's now a little cold to talk to him. but yeap, I will try. Will do my best. :) I am going off for cell group meeting tmr. I mean it's more of a cell group outing. enjoy myselves. :) finally, in a spirit of Christianity.

emotions.
something that i have been thinking about throughout this days. emotions can kinda wreck your life. if you were able to control -> FINE. you win k? but then emotions are not bad all the way. it gives u attachment to certain things. hmm you know? u kinda remember a place if u either enjoyed it or hated it. and that's why we should have emotions right? :) but where is that line between emotion and rationality?

and then, my side of life.
yea yea yea. haha this week was great. Thanks to God. I started to treat morning devotionals much more seriously. I wan to make it a point to pray a morning prayer coz i know it kinda keeps your life in track. :) yeap. what was so interesting this week leh?

melbourne trip. - melbourne trip pre trip briefing. I kinda think this trip is going to be fun -> there is chee howe and wei jie and vaibhav and chrisanathan. =P omg it was so nice. today's meeting is very fun too. :) ahah especially next to chee howe. he was lame , but then funny. =P hhaha and i wanna enjoy this trip too. then I can come home and STUDY. :)

thursday? - what? nothing to do man. thursday was like just study and study. oh yes, CARE meeting. yeap I think the folks at CARE are cranky and wanky. there is this guy who is "solar-powered" eddie if I still remember. then there is haikal, the botak guy. then the angmoh, the counsellor. and then got nicholas, the serious guy and suria! =) the hardworking one. =) haa thanks so much hafiz for going there with me coz I really would be lost if i went there myself. hah and yeap, they din switch on the aircon at first!!! =( hahaa sounds familiar?

wednesday- meeting. should be with cindy, constance, chaijun and me de. then chaijun din come and vaibhav entered our group. so we had a discussion.yum yum! ) hahaha it was fun. then we started playing that stupid hangman. haha! =P alamak. got bhb then got a lot of stuff. lol the meeting was chao fun chao nice. hhah but cindy lor, say wan to have dinner din go. :( haiz. ( hor cindy? =P) haha but then end up went dinner wif constance and her "gan jie". haa then very odd lah, coz I was like so seorang there. then constance and her gan jie super funny lah. both all trying to suan each other. =P yeap then they brought me to the zha bor shop. diaoz. haha. lol i saw the neoprint shop! alamak it brings back memories. haha. but nvm, move on! =)

tuesday-this is a boring day.
monday-this is a even more boring one.

let me remind myselves: inform SG about tmr! and maths trail form! =X alamak. must tell constance! die laio plus must do the name tags for the selection camp! =)

hangman!

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
hahha let's see whether cindy can get it =P.

okie guys, see ya tmr! :)

2006-05-30T04:13:00.000-07:00

to infinity and beyond.
had a rather hearty chat with rebecca yesterday. hhahaa i mean, yeah talked about issues. council. haha jasmine. =) haha. yea and rebecca made me realise one thing that I am stronger than what I think i am. it's true that perhaps jasmine is with someone else, but if she was with me, perhaps I would have a even harder time. well who knows? I think for me, it's time to put down all the feelings of anger, of disappointment, of sorrow and grieve and move on into a new chapter because I know that God has something big for me :) it's something bigger than what I have now.

target: church by end 2006.
yeap, I am targetting to go to church by this year end. :) it's year 2006. God has done work at a supersonic speed for the past 9 months. he has moved my whole family and including my cousin. God, there is still one last obstacle. My mother. i know now she is busy wif her trip, but once she gets back and my mid years are over, I want to work on it. :) enough of walking this walk alone. thank you isaiah. :)

back to kevin's life.
I admit, that I am too pampered by the airconditioner. today when there was no airconditioning, i was crying in my heart. ahhh the HEAT. my 'tey kor' was super wet and so dampy that it just felt very uncomfortable. now I know why cavemen wore leaves for so many years. =X yeap. it was on and off between two lecture theatres: lt 4 and lt 5. and both had no aircon. or weak aircon. whatever it was! =X hope miss lai explain or what lah. else we really gonna hate the school or something liddat.

after that, was mr aaron's lesson. haha he very nice lah, try his best to help us. :) well it din not work out that well, but yeap, effort appreciated :)

2006-05-30T04:08:00.000-07:00

a BORED. sunday.

2006-05-28T01:38:00.000-07:00

I know I know. I shouldn't be here blogging right? but what to do. my brain pangseh-ed me. I cannot take in a single thing, well i think I cannot lah. tmr is gp exam.

can u believe it? GP EXAM!!!

okay. keep your cool. :) sunday is going to over :( argh and then our extended school term. :( argh 1 week. can ren lah. then after that, 6th June, off to melbourneeee! :) yummy. anybody wan aussie flag? =P ha!

oh yar I think guitar concert really rox lah. I suddenly feel like playing the guitar. getting all hyped up about the guitar. at least can keep my mind off some things for now :) hahha a form of escape? well maybe lah. but then, it's for a while, till later when I can handle it :) but for now

guitar + vball + mugging

is going to rock my life. alamak, I seriously shouldn't call it mugging. it's more of enriching our spirits. yeap :) study enriches our spirits. so study more! blahx. get a life.

well gp-ing now. :)

my friday.

2006-05-26T09:26:00.000-07:00

study gp
haha this is boring. seriously, what can I write about studying gp?

played vball ALONE. :'(
wj pangseh-ed me. haiz. he liddat de lah. what to do? =P

Guitar concert.
haha I was the only audience fella to wear uniform. full school u. omg I rock right? =) but then the music was great. I wan to learn guitar!! =)

cocktails.

2006-05-25T22:20:00.000-07:00

haii. hahaha I am like happy and sad happy and sad mixed together. =) hha I'm feeling sad, but well happy that I din like take up the phone and sms something that i should send lah =) phew. happy. haha... but yeap, this is life lah. afterall not first time ler, so yea. haha not immune to it k :P haha. yea. see something is wrong wif me. suppose to feel sad de. bt nt! =) still got mood to study for GP. woaa. thank you :)

the flame laid down

2006-05-20T08:23:00.000-07:00

the flame was laid down.
It was a hard decision, but nonetheless, I had to make it.
finally I decided to give up on something that i had been working on for the past few months. Something that i so innocently thought, with true sincerity, that of her heart could change. I was hoping for miracle, for something that could never happen. Foolish indeed. So as of today, (9:46 pm) I no longer am going to put in effort for another relationship. it's taken a toll on me now. I cannot help but resent a lot of things. I rather give up then to resent her for the next 1.5 years. =)

Lord, please give me strength to tide through this period. That of your powers are supernatural. That of you grace is pouring out. Amen.

see ya guys! =)

2006-05-18T05:24:00.000-07:00

tired.
exhausted beyond comprehension. I wanna drink coke.then i wan an orange. yum =)

Special Resignation Scheme

2006-05-16T05:28:00.000-07:00

14 th June 2006 - Special Resignation Scheme.
yea, i just heard of the news just yesterday. seriously speaking. I dunnoe how to react. my parents and sister, people who I look up to. they like indifferent to it. my mum seems to be just neutral. asking me not to splurge so much money. my dad, indifferent. summore ask us whether wanna go UK. hhhaa. yea I seriously dunnoe how to react lah. Just wanted to talk to the Lord about it. Suddenly thought of many things : my studies, what my dad going to do next, future. hahaa I think a lot right. like an adult. hmmm yea. =) hahaa. somehow one very weird thing is that keep on tinking like how going to compare to j.yar.. almost got a shock when i see how big her house is. my, not tat big but still, smaller. now wif the srs thingy coming, dunnoe what to do. yea... but i think, must change my view ah. coz this is not about money ah. btu about just the two of us. =)

thank you Lord, for through this experience, then I can truly understand what you mean by not letting riches rule us. allowing us to understand how to strike a balance between you and money. for we live not for money, but for doing the will of God. Give us strength, Amen. =)

hmm, on the brighter side of life ---> my pw is getting somewhere. I am so happy I got this group. =) thank you. =)

2006-05-13T10:13:00.000-07:00

The Journey to Self Discovery
By Kevin Ang, Meridian Junior College

The search for self –identity is often one that is daunting mystery. He who has settled his mind on self-discovery often ends up baffled and confused to the extent that he or she wished that they had not embarked on the journey but contented with his status quo; that of a free agent, having the mind to make his own decisions, not affected by self-induced criteria.

Recently I was in such a situation. Well, in fact, I have, for many years been in such a position. It was only today that this journey of self-discovery has made me desperate, frustrated and angered that I decided to pen down some thoughts on self- discovery.

This journey started not too long ago. January 2003, close to two years ago, when I suddenly felt the emptiness of my previous years. My leap of stepping out signified the end of a playful person. In its place, for better or for worse, was a man of maturity, one that pondered about everything, big and small, distant and near; One that viewed the world with the mind of an adult but existed in the real of youthfulness. Back then, it was a year of change. My life was enlightened by a tuition teacher who passed on much invaluable advice to me. She came from a family that had abandoned her, not physically at first, but emotionally and spiritually and as the years went on, physically. Her courage to see light in darkness, to see hope in desperation kindled a whole train of events. They later defined who I am today. That is not to say she led to my self-discovery, but more of a catalyst of it.

By luck or by chance, I was appointed to be a student councillor in my secondary school. This was no doubt a big feat for a severely introverted youth. Having to stand in front of a crowd, commanding respect in which others deprived of, encourage d me to research widely on the subject of leadership. A fast learner I was, I soon grasped these concepts well – something that gave me an edge above the rest. Although I was doing relatively well by the time I reached secondary three, I constantly sought for perfection. I began to perceive my behaviour as a combination of many facets. Each facet boasted many self-help series, each proclaiming to be the best, but when but onto the chopping board, they were merely recounts of their own experiences. My study room, in which I carefully dissected each of these books gradually, became my home. That was where I felt a sense of belonging too. It was also the birth of great ideas and eventually the base camp for the arduous climb to the peak of self mastery.

The path to self discovery was not an easy one. There were times of solitude and brief moments of companionship and fellowship. True friendship was perhaps rare as one who was on the journey is unwilling if not unable to bring someone along, either for fear of letting the companion down or for fear of having to be tied down to a never-ending list of obligations.
The climb started off smoothly. Men, given their fallen nature, got cocky and very soon bumped into various obstacles. Many questions that attempted to destabilize the need for such a journey were raised. Why did I have to subject myself to such torture and misery? Why can’t I just be like the rest? Frequently, the questions had to be tackled on alone. The already sparse number of friends could do little, either due to the lack of will of the weakness of their understanding on the nature of the problem. Answer thus, did not come easy. The most I could do then was to compare my answers to my own needs and desires. Any laymen would be able to identify the weakness of such criteria, but when one is severely dehydrated for answers, any drop of answer, no matter whether it was from a fresh or polluted source was taken in as though it was from a spring that sprouted tasty and nutritious water.

Finally, when all answers seemed to be answered, a longing for progress births in midst of stability. Where to now? After spending time conquering a sizeable bulk of the journey of self-discovery, the heart is burning with a passion to find more. The end results are that we are trapped in a cycle of events. We push ourselves even further to know more but this time, with the new-found confidence of our own identity. Confidence leads to liberation, and liberation in my case led to fantasies. Fantasies of a much better future; fantasies of being someone which we are not. Simply put: when we have just touched the clouds, we want to aim for the stars. From then on, everything in which we learnt about ourselves is reduced to nothing but a benchmark of what we should not be. We begin to hate ourselves. We begin to despise ourselves for our weakness and look to the world for power that was not meant for us. The very moment we start to covet for what is not ours, we start to deviate away from our goal. We propel off to another tangent of our own. We start treading onto unknown boundaries that we are not supposed to. Eventually, fear creeps into our unguarded hearts. It starts to cripple us for every step we take in the consciousness of the unknown. Eventually, we run away from the very that that we ran to initially – ourselves.

God made humans as strong beings. Because of this, the human body is not one that could be easily understood. Its complexity marveled scientists, philosophers, priests and clerics to the extent that it is treated as a holy item. Holy it is indeed, for it has powers to bring one that has wronged back on course. As the year progresses on, the lethargy of having to follow our ideals in every action we take and not to what our heart suggests slows us down, erodes away our determination to walk in the path of error, and forces us back to our original path. However, many times, especially that of the first time, we are tempted to avoid these questions. These questions don’t disappear just like this, they are then tucked at the back of our head, waiting to spring back into consciousness at a later date. When that time comes, we start to deliberate on our purpose on Earth. Why are we doing such things that we don’t want to? If we are lucky enough, and often we are, we return to our place of comfort once again, a place where we belonged to.

The arduous journey definitely was not without gain. We gain a new insight of our thinking. As we reflect, we start o know how we think. Science has been a great helping hand in this area. The creation of various personality profiling has aided us in defining who we are. Every obstacle we overcome, every hurdle we jump over gives us fresh revelation and gives us food to continue the journey. At times, we boast of our newly gained knowledge by re-orientating our lives to encompass this wisdom. After years of learning to stand after falling, I have found myself to be stronger than who I am. I have seen the essence of life through my starvation of identity and gained a new perception that others struggle to see. At each turning point in life is a champion trophy that cheers me on. The fruits of self-discovery are sweet and juicy. It feeds the hungry and definitely, they are there to stay.

As we tread on our journey for self-discovery, we gain fruits for our hard work. Science has proven the hidden benefits of fruits- they are a natural source of sugars and dietary fibre. Similarly, self discovery produces strength that is waiting to be unleashed in us and excretes the useless toxic that have accumulated in our systems for the past few years. Through years of toiling and patient endurance, wisdom is birthed within us. We start to see the world differently from others. We no longer rush during the morning rush hours; instead, we take time to appreciate the world. We lend a helping hand to those in need, something which others, who have not gone through the test of self discovery would never appreciate. We start to dissociate ourselves from friends that impede our growth and immense ourselves totally in fellowship a small but like-minded group of people. The more hurdles we jump over, the stronger we get. The more we gain, the further ahead we go in the journey of self discovery.

Truth is often found in neither book nor a biography of a famous figure. The insatiable want for truth drives us to try out different religions. Through religion, we attain spiritual serenity. Our minds are saturated with teachings that given a chance, could rule our whole life. That is when choosing a religion entails careful consideration. It would be useful for me to list down a synopsis of every religion, but my search was short. I found solace in the concept of a new ‘me’ through the crucifixion of our Lord Jesus Christ on the cross of Nazareth some 2000 years ago. His great mercy for us humans and his wonderful and miraculous resurrection amazed me. The Bible in itself offered a unified and relevant concept on how to life my everyday life. I began to embrace the concept of sacrificing our own beliefs to do the will of Someone of higher authority, the owner of all galaxies and the Father of truths. My journey for self somehow, has come to an end. My journey for my Father’s will has just started.

Again, as my faith starts to mature, I realized that a journey for my Father’s will consists to a sizeable extent, my journey for self. To say that it has ended, is to say that it has died in the secular side. Now, my journey for self is guided by teachings and that of my Father. This journey will be a challenging one. I will see even more obstacles to overcome this time round. Difference is, there is companionship in such a pilgrimage. I have found the power that two or more produces. Mathematically, a simple product of one and something else will always equate to the same thing. But the product of two and something else will be twice that of which we multiplied. However, most importantly we must have the wisdom to make choices in our friends. One that is beneficial to us will multiply our wisdom. One that is harmful to us, will be like a fraction upon us, shortchanging us of our wisdom. I have also learnt that, there are no absolute answers in the game of life. We have to have that courage to believe in ourselves and the very day when believing in ourselves became an unconscious action in everything we embrace, then it is when we have truly attained self mastery. As we believe in ourselves and soak ourselves in companionship and fellowship, we no longer will run after things that we are not of, for the desire for more stems from the feeling of emptiness in our wholeness and the acceptance of our wholeness despite emptiness. Eventually, the realization of our wholeness despite of emptiness will neutralize desires for more, just like how antacid tablets neutralize our hunger pangs.

This journey is not so much of journey. It is more like steps to maturity. We take this path so that we may mature. We take steps so that we may be distinguished as ‘grown-ups’. As I write, I came to realize the beauty of this journey. I learnt much from this writing. I no longer harbour feelings or anger and frustration, nor do I have the desire to gain the favour of others. At the end, self discovery is not a bad thing; it is nothing more than a stage that helps us to mature. It is something that is compulsory and there is simply no point running away from. At the end of our life then, we can justify the worthiness of our life with this journey of self discovery.

(c) Copyright 2006, By Kevin Ang. PLease do not reproduce this article unless with written permission via mail or email to Kevin Ang at kevagc@gmail.com . Thank you!

music xtraordinare

2006-05-11T07:23:00.000-07:00

hahaa. I think I din regret going to Music Xtraordinaire. True lah, I had some reasons for keeping it on hold. but later i went coz yea, i think must support yan hong and jasmine. Things just ran through my mind, perhaps i was tired. But I think it's really time that we take a stand. I think it's time. the time has come. I've always been wanting to wait for this time to cum. a time to let go. a time to end it. yes, it was nice at first. but as u get to see more, u get to know more. u get to understand more. u synthesis more and u conclude more. what ends up is either how you synthesised what u see: either u become sad or u become happy. My result, well perhaps it just went like the other time, bad. I know I know. It could be some mood swings or what. But i think yes, we'll just let it go its way this time. JC life is tough. I want to do it God's way. =) do it the way He plannned for me. =) instead of hating, i think it's better to let go, and be happy. =). I always wanted a breakthrough in life.

there is something that is pulling me back from doing more. I can see it, but i cannot reach it.

well, somehow someone will come in. We will see lah. =) shall we? bt not now lah. hahaha. enuff liao. like some kind of cat and mouse game. I'm not bold enuff. or perhaps, it's just like this. =) hahaha. me and wei jie. hhahah I just realised we are of the same horoscope. hahah no wonder I can click so well wif him. =P haha! haha and it's like we're the two bachelors. hahah some kind of humourous self pity, but it does work. =P hhaaa.

was on the train. hhahah could not take the thinking and everything. the concert set me thinking. it wasn't that comfortable, but i'm happy it made me think. =) hahaa!

jian xin was on FIRE.he like going to spike the ball when the high part came. hhaa very good. =) way to go lah jian xin! =)

yarp. still thinking. ah shut up! =P hhaha think go watch DVL. =P

another week.

2006-05-05T05:23:00.000-07:00

Permanent REACH rep.
yes, a walkover for REACH rep and almost every single other rep. I was taken a little surprised - I thought wei jin or Joannna was going to run for the post, but then they din! hmmz. oh yar! congrats wei jin!! - 06s210's class rep!!! =D hhahha congrats! =)

Volleyball Competition at CCAB.
yes! we got to the top 8! ahaha yea, we lost to ajc, bt then we fought, we strived, though we din win, we put on a great fight! =) good job guys! =) do ya best guys! =) yeap i am kinda sad lah. coz we wun get the hall and everything, which we seriously need for our training. but then nvrm! =) we will prevail! we will work hard! MJC VBALL!

Kia Tar bought an iPod Shuffle 1Gig.
Kia tar bought an iPod shuffle at sim lim after we watched the CCAB thingy! haha it ended quite early but then we went sim lim, then went bugis. wei jie is kinda an irrational consumer! =P

" Eh kevin, you buying the bag?"
"no ah, I dun think so, I want to go back to think about it!"
"Okie lor, then I buying it!"

Then wei jie handed the guy 35 dollars to the stall guy! haha! and guess what? he din bargain! not even a dollar! =X OMG. =X hhaha yeap. then after walk for a few km, then he realised, he did not bargain! =X me and kia tar also forgot to ask him! =X yar how dense were we!

World Nerd Day

is on next thursday.

BreadTalk Cake for Momma.

yea I getting the 27 buck breadtalk cake for my momma! =) owe yun long!

I am so challenged and so happy.

2006-04-28T05:59:00.000-07:00

the week.
woah what a week. yeap! haha! why? coz i survived the week with very very late nights!
monday - 12am
tuesday - 1am
wednesday - 12am
thursday- 1:30 am
friday - ?
yar and usually i like sleep 11++ haha! so it's a feat! yea!!!! haha! I am getting better at sleeping late! =D. my results are super depressing. so far, no passes. I just hope for a pass in my upcoming maths test! =) so I wun be demoralised. haha! well i wanna study for fridays liao.then sat nights can fully go play the freaking com. =P.

cheerleading.
phenomenal - we practised so hard and so hard. but things just din get right. till the very last moment. thank God!! =) yeap I know we missed a few parts but in the end it went well! =) I am so GLAD! =) Thank God! hhaha and yar we had fun doing that monkey tingy, or more like i have fun, the rest were all cannot take it liao! =X haha especially cheng! but yea, we worked hard. though we are not as good as the rest, we worked hard. very hard! =) stayed back till 10 pm to do our dance steps + sacrificed lunch today for practise. =) well then again, atlas's cheerlead is great. haha very nice. they deserved the trophy! haha so did the rest of the houses! =) and of course us for the Most Determined House! =) yeap 3 cheers! =) yes, colosseum was fun! I know some might say chey not fun. yar, but as long as u participate, it will be fun! =) made a few new frens. the people from s207! =)

on God.
yea i really thank shok mei on giving me that advice. haha I guess yar it is true lah. there are more things to focus on for now. That is studies and serving God. yarp and yes, I am glad that I have taken off this bondage towards this area finally after so many years. =) I have taken off many bondages and still maintaining this status. there are still many. put our trust in Him to de-bond us! =D

Parents.
asked my mumma about going to church once every week. she's quite resistant towards it ah. yar but I guess I not that angry with her liao lah. hhaha it takes time. thank Isaiah so much for giving this challenge to me. haha i love Isaiah man. he challenges me everytime! yar i guess, the fact that my mum is willing to consider shows that there is still hope. I may still be able to go church, once a week. but that is enough. then we will work to 2 times, then 3 times then very soon it will be the whole month! means every week! =D

well that's all ah for this week! =) see you again next time! =D

saturday. lao zui!

2006-04-22T07:04:00.000-07:00

rain keep on dropping on my head.
yes, the toilet leaked water?! omg yes, first, there was a blackout, a prelude that is to the big leak. then when the electricity came back, *play the song*,

rain keep on dropping on my head,
but i just dunnoe why the hell it is,
drop,
dropping on my head,
when,
I have a bloody shelter,
on my head OHHHHHH!

the hero.

ahh what the shit. then the rescue effort came: ladders, rags, brooms, torches, screw drivers.
very soon, it stopped. water stopped. breathe. switch on the tap and then..

rain keep on dropping on my head,
but i just dunnoe why the hell it is,
drop,
dropping on my head,
when,
I have a bloody shelter,
on my head OHHHHHH!

what the fish! so yeap ladders, rags, brooms torches. and at the end,

well u can see lah, I couldn't shower =(. argh!

mum din fetch me, so i went back wif jasmine!
it was fun! lol she makes my day man! =P hha! yarp, apprently lah, my mum was not able to fetch us, so yar, coincidentally, thus we went back together. but it was freaking raining!! =X haha! yarp, so except that part. oh yar and jasmine looked great today! =P hhaha!

on God.
just receiving lots of stuffs about God. =) so happ that He is with me and I can recognise his presence. =)

this week

2006-04-21T04:37:00.000-07:00

End of the week.
finally, end of the week again. what a relief! haah yes so happy that the week is coming to an end. next week will be even better! =D haha!

What happened this week?
fixed my braces - my dentist fixed this super super stiff wire in my lower jaw. now it feels as if ur pre molar teeth is going to like drop out anytime. it's as if something is stuck in ur teeth and yes, the ulcers are starting to show up. bloody ulcers i hate u! =X
tiredness - 1am sleeps. phew I cannot take it lah. continuously 2 weeks! but then again. I mUST take it!!!! =D I can do it man! woah!! siao. hhaha! yarp... and what else yar.. no vball extra training this week!!! =(

nothing else moreee! =D do check back here. MERIDIAN TUITION OUTREACH PROGRAMME. AHHH!

Sunday thots!

2006-04-15T21:20:00.000-07:00

jasmine chong!
woah! hhaha look at jasmine's profile liao! her photos are woah! superb lah. haha she has greaatt potential as a model! X) hahaha! hahah and was reading the testimonial that she wrote for me. kinda nice. hahha coz it came from her =). yarp thank you! :D yes, but i must say, all that I am today, is thanks to the Lord. If i din become a Christian, I would be a completely different guy. =). something worse than what i am today. =) oh yar, and thank you so much jasmine, for beiing able to tolerate my quietness. =) thank you! =)

Easter.
Suddenly easter has so much meaning for me. To me, this is my first Easter. Just thinking back about some 2000+ years ago when Jesus died on the cross for our sins. yes, I really feel happy and glad that I converted. Thank you Jesus for being my Saviour. Thank you =)

Visioneering.
Yes, I am reading a book on visioneering. How I can vision my future. I want to set up my own vision. Something which I can follow. Something that can guide me in life. Something that God has ordained me to do. yeap so gunned up noww!! AHHHH!!! hahaa

Some pure fun.
Duh I need to relax myself too right> ahh!! my east coast park tingy bao tang liao! I am so so so so sad! =( nvm next friday!!! =D haha. either east coast park or Old Tk. hahha would do! =D

embrace the braces part 1

2006-04-14T22:44:00.000-07:00

Embrace the braces.
Part one of the many part series by Kevin Ang

It was. Not pain. YES NOT PAIN. cause i think there was kinda of a new technologu used. To explain, I searched wikipedia --

"Archwires in the past had to be bent, shaped, and tightened frequently to achieve the desired results. Modern orthodontics makes frequent use of nickel-titanium archwires and temperature-sensitive materials. When cold, the archwire is limp and flexible, easily threaded between brackets of any configuration. Once heated to body temperature, the archwire will stiffen and seek to retain its shape, creating constant light force on the teeth."
Source: Wikipedia

Yes, so I am here. i can talk, but i feel like the wire is pulling my teeth a little, but I can still talk, still bite, bt I rather not. Now i am waiting for the other stuffs - Mouth sores and ulcers. =)

WARNING: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS GRAPHIC MATERIALS. VIEWER'S DISCRETION IS ADVICED!!!
okie, so much for the scaring of you, here it is, my new look.

So you can see lah, apparent I couldn't choose the PINK that i wanted. But it turned out quite well. I see other people's braces all quite big leh, but mine a little small. or perhaps. I have BIG BIG TEETH! raaa! =X so yea, it's not goinig to hurt that much lah, but at least I get a set of nice straight teeth after 2 years and yea I can pronounce my words much more clearly like an ang moh. They call red hair people. =X IF your realized, my lower teeth wasn' t really done up, coz apparently the doctor wanted the top to get a little more space then he would add in the bottom. yeap, so not that bad =) still can smile and people will take photos. =)

but yes, the doctor was freaking stressed up - he had to rush mine coz I went there 20 mins late. =X and yar some problems cocked up, but i think he stressed for no reason, coz he finished it 20 mins before hand -.- weird fella. nvm. but at least I got some stuff to bring home. kekee.

so that's all, read more on the 29th April, where I have my next apptment! =D

2006-04-14T03:57:00.000-07:00

test test test

new blog skin

2006-04-14T03:25:00.000-07:00

new blog skin. fully designed. bao ka liao =) quite happy!

2006-04-14T01:13:00.000-07:00

test!

to jasmine

2006-04-13T06:55:00.000-07:00

hey jasmine:

Seriously, I really been thinking about your problem since you told me this afternoon. I dunnoe whether it was for a good news that u told me that you are withdrawing. Inside me, I felt a little undecided for you. On one hand, if you join the Council, life is going to be tuff for you. But if you don't join the Council, you will enjoy, but will you gain something in life? Will u gain something in life that you are happy of that you are proud of? Yes I know, it's pain to go through it. But it will be for a short while: when you joined the Council, proved yourself right, now even if you do not get a chance to prove yourself, at least you tried. At least you have given it a go. Won't going away from this problem be some form of escape? But either way that you make, yes I will be happy with whatever decision that you choose. But please, make it a wise decision. You have many chances to drop out of Council, but only one chance to enter the Council. =)

that's all I have to say. Really hope you think about ur decision. =)

8 ulcers!!!!!!!!

2006-04-07T05:52:00.000-07:00

8 ulcers 4 teeth gone - the price you have to pay for putting on braces.

well ,I start to look up to people who have braces =P for one fact - you have gone thru pain. hhahaa

yes I know there is an invention called anaesthetic! but the problem is, it can wear off even before your pain ends, so there it goes. hhahaa yar. i dunnoe why lah I was super nervous for the second extraction. Coz after seeing what happened for the first extraction, kinda get freaked out. haha now I realise how people get scared of bloody, coz it is scary. and very scary when u see bloody flowing out from your mouth.................................................

okie enough of that. but well, another "experience" gained ( trying to be positive, you know? Stephen Covey's 7 habits! )

well let's talk about my week okie?
monday - study
tuesday - study
wednesday - study + volleyball ( recre ) kind of feel demoted, bt yea great coz less stress!
thursday - study + teeth extraction + soccer match( was there in spirit )
friday - study + debate + reach corner meeting + volleyball training on ourselves!! =D

yea I am so enthu! I just realised that in the worst case scenario, we will only have 4 places left for volleyball team nxt year. =) haha I wanna work hard, think work hard with wei jie to get our vball good and get into the team next year. haha the desire of my heart - to get into the vball team! =) okie? yes I WANNA WORK HARD! hhahh. yea I think nxt time fri's can go ecp train. then mer can cum down and join us. afterall she is the pro! =X

well but today was fun - haha we were dead serious - we did 10 basketball jumps and then a rather unsuccessful frog jump, coz we felt the LACTIC ACID!!!!!!!! muahaha! haha yarp so after that we just did digging. took time off to train our basket ball and soccer. how nice =P hhaha but overall just wanna destress lah. din take it too seriously. afterall it's best to learn when it is fun right? =D hahaa yarp! yar and there was this guy that came and teach us volleyball! oh man he rox. hahaa he taught us how to sharpen our skills - erm setting and digging. haha very pro lah can see. hhaha we thought he was the security guard trying to chase us away! =( haha but then later we made an effort to do frog jump all the way to one end of the court! =) hhaha and we did it!! =) haha so happy but we wanted to do one round one k :(

k k !!!! must get into team! determination! =X haha tmr will go train too! =) hhaha! pump it. =X
okie what else - oh yar reach corner meeting screwed up - no one attended! =( argh so shit wanna help but dun wann make an effort to cum! thanks ! =(

nvm anw perkafe mash potato rox!! hahaa.
okie that's all!

Sunday and thinking.

2006-04-02T07:15:00.000-07:00

phew. week 3 I think has just gone by. breeeeeze. it's gone. very soon we'll be sitting for the very first meridian test. hhha wonder how it would be. well of course, get ready for higher suicide rates. =)

well week 3 relatively nice. finding my footing in jc life - trying to balance stuffs - studies, friends, family and my Christian walk. =) Happy to say, I have added something in to strengthen my Christian walk. That is bible study every wednesday. Yeap, I have arranged with Isaiah for bible studies every wednesday. yeap and if there is anything that is going to fall on tat day which hopefully dun have, i will cancel it to go for bs. yeap. I really made a wall somehow this few months. Never kept to my promise of going to church once every month. Somehow i think once I hit the PW it'll be easier to get an excuse to go church. say have meetings every sunday, yes. =) hopefully. well I dunnoe what my PW group combi going to be, but I know it's definitely going to be something that will challenge me. Along the way, I have lost confidence in my leadership style. now i hope to pick up that confidence that i have lost. =)

well this morning woke up super early, so had the time to just toss and turn, stare at the ceiling and think of everything in life. I thot a lot - from j to studies to family to walk with God. Well in terms of studies, i can see myself easing down to study. haha i know it will take sometime to get used to MSN then study, but yes I need some form of slow down after college before I can start work. I dun mind operating on half empty tanks, but at least I need to slow down. well in terms of family, I just hope that I can feel more family. God has been doing a great job - He has started to make me humble myself. Once i thought I was rather humble, but I know that I am not. And yes, I really need to watch the way I speak. yeap, but overall I am happy with what I am doing wif my family. I think I spend enough time. yes also been thinking about GP tuition blocking my Saturdays ( i need the Sats to get my tan back!) thus if it blocks than I will shift it back. =)

hhaha. the j part perhaps is the one that I think a lot of. hhaha yes, I decided it's not a solution to hide away from it. Admit it - I screw up relationships. haha nah it's just a label. I need to take it off. bt yea, I think for now, we'll just let it flow. I think i really been rushing into it - not giving myself enough time. I tend to look after other people a lot at times till i forget to look after myselfs. and because of that, I neglect others. =( yea. This is one thing in which I ask God for revelation. Coz seriously I am EQ illiterate. When it comes to handling this, at times I just stand there stunned, unsure of what I can do to save myself. At times I step into this ocean of the unknown. I cannot save myself, bt can only wait upon God to throw a life buoy for me. He is the one that keeps me afloat. And i really thank him for the strength He gives me. =)

I guess i'll have to accept myself. For once. I shall accept myself but continue to work on it. yes kevin please, accept yourself will ya? =) for God has accepted you. why don't u? oh gosh. toking to myself. hhahaa follow jasmine de -.-

well this week is gonna be tough - REACH corner meeting + CG initiated CG. bt if life has no challenges, then how are we going to get stronger? =) haha trust God.

" If you follow a parked car, you will never get anywhere." Anon.

see ya guys!

Psp blog

2006-04-01T17:11:00.001-08:00

really been thinking about liFe today morning. i manage to wake up early today and i just lay there tinking about life. perhaps at time i really lost touch wif my life, my priorities and my goal in life. i tink i wanna concentrate on communicating wif pple. too much msn has made me a little quiet in front of people. yea... i am also wanna concentrate on learning my guitar! yea.

Psp blog

2006-04-01T17:11:00.000-08:00

I got the TAG poison. now here is my medicine!

2006-03-30T06:23:00.000-08:00

I am neglecting my studies. k nvm i will catch up this sat okie? :D

The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers. Specify the gender of the target. Tag 5 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying that they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.The perfect girl has to be... :

1. Super talkative but can stand quiet moments coz I am quiet by nature
2. Someone who can study with me, play volleyball wif me, go sentosa see chio bu wif me ( wah that's like cheating coz i list down about 4 there liao but nvm )
3. Must be chio in my eyes
4. Dun have to be Christian, but is willing to embrace my religion and is willing to accept Christ should the time come
5. Dun have to be there all the time, but is not so tai tai, I dun mind going shopping wif her, but as long as she dun make me shop till I end up in hospital then okie liao.
6. Must of course, pass my stringent chio-ness test.
7. Must have the heart and compassion to serve =)
8. Must like children.
Since buy 8 usually will get 1 free then....
9. Doesn't frequent pubs, clubs and those weird places. =X

yea. 5 people to do it ah.... erm...
1. LEE SHOK MEI!!!
2. James
3. Meryl
4. ahhh! ben chow since he see my blog liao!!!!
5. Wang LiHong if she sees it!

yea finish!

to join or not to join?

2006-03-28T04:26:00.000-08:00

it comes in and out in and out in and out in my head. lots of times. I really wonder if that is the call for me to go out to serve. yea. I really think very hard on it. at a moment before I made up my mind to not join. but yes, thanks to the phone call today by adeline and the "ogl meeting" today that we had, I start to ponder a lot.

joining the council would means lots of stuffs I have to give up - from good academic results all the way to my leisure time, my nice holidays at sentosa and lots of stuffs perhaps. I know it will look nice on my portfolio. very nice in fact. every single event that i attended I can take up. i can make more frens. know more people, expand my social network, and fall within that safety net.

yes, but of course not joining would like mean more time. i can explore in new places. I can take a look at different areas in life. in CIP, something that I wanted to do so badly. I charted out this CIP route for myselves. Council is no longer much of a challenge - I have some tips on time management. yes there will still be sweat, but I fear that I may get too cocky, too proud if I join council. I wanna go for something that will make me fall, something that I will have to sweat for. something that I can fight for. not some event that is compulsory for me to do.

yeap. I know the very last factor perhaps. Is God's calling. it's the final decision factor. after that I will learn to take on the R and E well. there's somewhere I have to learn to accept that I cannot be the top always. =) yeap.

yea... so let's really just pray for the revelation for this. =)

Something About Teen Sex.

2006-03-25T20:18:00.000-08:00

Was reading the newspapers today. and a few shocking things happened. Probably u have heard it over and over again, but perhaps at times, it is good to just step back and think about it.

Average Age when teens had their first sexual experience: 15.5 years
( that is probably the age when you we mugging for your O levels or struggling through your sec 3 work)

How often do they have sex?
More than once a day: 3 ( that is almost every alternate day having sex)
2-3 times a week: 7 ( just in case you had some remedials on that week, else it would be the same as the above )
Once a week: 10 ( it's almost like you cca )

That is not the most shocking one. The more shocking once are below:
Would you have relationship with someone you are not in relationship with?
yes: 13 no:7( it's like having sex with a stranger )
Do you insist on safe sex
no: 16 yes:4

(source: The Sunday Time by Singapore Press Holdings)
So think about it. Is it time we do something about this?
Why has sex, something which from the religious side, a sacred act become like this?
Or if you are a free thinker, why has sex become an act of convenience? isn't it time that we as Singaporean teens step out and do something about it?

Anyone is susceptible to teen sex, even I as I speak. Coz you never know when the temptations would come. It's like people who first enter the Casino never tell themselves : " Oh I wanna be a gambling addict". Thus you won't really know about it until perhaps you got into trouble

BGR is fine. But not teen sex.
The equation, Love = Sex is somehow getting more true. Let's make a difference.
Let love not be sex, but rather, let it be patience. Sex is reserved for marriage. Not for fun.

If what i have said has stirred up something in you, please support this movement in any fashion. You may want to create your own logo and whatever. You may even write something about teen sex here. How you respond is your choice. You may even use my logo up there if you want to. Thanks!

econs field trip! hhaha yeap I made up the mind to go for econs field trip. I won't be going for the germany one anymore but would be going for the econs one! =) haha great. jas is going too! =)

hhaha yeap and yar do hmwk! =X bye!

2006-03-24T22:21:00.000-08:00

in meridian blazer.
haha i love the meridian blazer ( except perhaps the slacks ). here is me and my sai-kang fren =P jian xin in meridian blazer. haha what better it is to take a photo of me in meridian blazer with my best fren who is also in meridian blazer. woah cool! =)

SEAMEO ministers.
the seameo event went well - no cock ups. =) hahaa I was doing the ushering duty. haha busy ushering the white SEAMEO cars into the school. ahah everything was white - even the bus that fetched the delegates was white! I think it was the only bus with silver tyre rims =) chio! Then after that we went to take photos. LOADS. haha but only 2 were stored in my phone. =) hhaha I think i have loads more with james! btu well overall the event was fun! =) perkafe looks better now! =D

what a first week gone. hahaa I'm going to work hard, btu somehow a very bad time coz today jasmine is at parkway! argh! and then I am like can't go out thanks to my great mum haha btu nvm! I can spend more time with my family. =) hhaha had movie night yesterday watched insomnia!=D

well this week was great ah. went for the cereberal palsy training workshop! =) haha it was nice, boring and the worst thing ist that there is no suitable volunteer slots. just one only ;( argh! =X hhahaa! yeap. then went back tk. help out with 50th anniversary stuff! for a short while only! =) then later after that mr teh gave us this cap. hahah! very nice one : TK ROX! in front. =P hhaha!

that was fun lah. haha any that all for now! see ya!

tuesday - she made the right choice. =)

2006-03-21T06:53:00.000-08:00

hey hey! hhaha I din wan to blog today, bt yesterday somehow, I came across this very very nice scripture. something that has given me lots of strength. hhaha.

" Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance."
1 Corinthians 14:4-7

dont's just browse through it. ponder about every phrase. whether u r Christian or non Christian. It may just be the key to why you are feeling upset even though u r in a relationship or wanting to start one. =)

I think perhaps at times I must explain why i mention so much about God and stuff here. Well one reason is that I really cherish my conversion to Christian. WIthout it, i won't be here where I am today. And definitely, I would not have accomplished if without God's strength. =)

yeap. one thing that fills my heart today is what jasmine has decided for her life. I am happy with the way she has choosen to take. I decided already, perhaps I dun stand a chance with her, but at least I wanna give the best to her. The end we'll see how. God has arranged everything. =). but anw, I am happy that she has chosen that path. and yeap will give her my best for her elections! ;)

yeap that's all ah. I think I wanna go off! bye!

mondays thots - spiritual renewal!

2006-03-20T04:56:00.000-08:00

yesterday was really an emotional walk. haha just repenting, repenting for being lukewarm with God. yeap.. thanks to shok mei. Revelation 3:16. it was a little harsh to accept at first. bt I think it's true. ;) and yes I really just read into it, repent to the Lord. yeap, I may consider to change to HOPE. =) coz cornerstone's services are really out of the way at times. :) but it's also a move along with God. at least now I wun have to make excuses. :)

s210. I seem to be a little unhappy about it. although I know there are many fun people. perhaps it's beacuse I cannot find my comfort point yet. but yeap I am slowly finding it. Hafiz, Wadi!!! erm meng hui. =) yeap I am glad that at least I have people whom I know in my cg now. =) so yes, I was put in s210 for a reason!!!! :D

yea i wanna study hard. I dun wanna let my mum use my studies as an excuse to accuse Christianity. I wanna glorify You. =) I am gonna study hard!! =)

Of Parents.

2006-03-18T20:34:00.000-08:00

Suddenly this week was really a self discovery of how God views how we should treat our parents. Thanks to Shok Mei, I started really looking at how I treat my parents.

"This is the promise: If you HONOUR your father and mother and mother, 'you will live a long life, full of blessings.' " Ephesians 6:3

yea, I really wanna honour my parents and respect them even if I disagree with them. I know they may have flaws in their thinking and everything. Yet nobody is perfect. We must learn how to forgive them, show them respect and learn how to obey them even despite of their imperfection. This way, others will respect us despite of our imperfections, and so will our Lord, who has forgiven us even despite of our imperfection.

yeap. =)

Stay at home Wednesday

2006-03-15T05:04:00.000-08:00

"When you are weak, then you are strong." (somewhere from the bible)

haha this was the verse that I still remember from my first cell group. I must go cell group. this sat is a very good time to go! coz going to east coast park then afterwards go! yeap. ahaha today was talking to my mother. hahaa then she suddenly started to say that because I accepted Christ, that's why my study went bad. hhaha.... it's weird lah. I'm not angry with what she said. bt I was just thinking how I can convince her that christianity is about salvation. yea... I guess it
s because of this weakness that God can display his glory. =) hhaha.

well today was staying home partially. hhaha anthony came over to borrow my driver. haha no I dun have a person that drives me around ,but rather it is my golf club! pui! haha whatever. then we were dismantling my remote control car! haha. it cannot work liao. the turning part koyak. =X

hhaha after that we went to draw money. haha 1sst time in my life i saw 1000 bucks noteess haha so fun . but it was gone later coz I put it in Hong Leong Finance. hhha! for 1 year. haha then i will get 112 bucksss =D hhahha. rox lah. everybody go put ur money in Hong Leong Finance lah= Xh haha.

okie so that was prettty much. I was tuning my sis's and i guitar and suddenly, the a string snapped. haha not g string. dun think dirty. =X tico. haha and replaced it. haha i wanna learn guitar. then be like julian =D hhaha. =X nvm

k that's all =D hhaha bye!

campfire - orientation 2 ends today.

2006-03-10T08:49:00.000-08:00

it as great. orientation 2 ended with joys and tears. :) personally, this day was really very touching. haha i almost wanted to cry ah. :'(

SARGAS. wat can I say. it's really inconceivable. from the not-enthu house that we once were, we showed them that it was not true. not only that, we incorporated all other houses in the sargas spirit. where there was a vega spirit, a regulus spirit, an alhena spirit, there would be a sargas spirit. this spirit that we had resolved all differences among us. if we lost, it's okie. we had fun, let others take the glory. if we win, yes it was the best feeling. =)

personally, it has been a trememendous experience for me. from the day 1, super de-motivated by sargas 1, to today, where sargas 1 proved me that I was wrong. and yes, they did. I was so happy for them. :) although we weren't that united at first. we were a composition of tjc-ian ogls and ex-reggies, but I am glad everyone put down their differences and came together in the sargas spirit, united, together and as one. although we were down to about 5, but no doubt, we made a difference. :D

this experience has taught me one thing - Leaders are never satisfied with what they have now. they are constantly seeking to change it. And as a leader, I must seek to make a difference. Although to say, i won't be joining th student's council, I will help out in events that will help make this Meridian Experience more enriching and get to know more people and gain more experience. I like Muhaimin's spirit - the spirit to have fun and not make enemies with other houses.

all glory, all praises go to God. yeap. After CSI I almost wanted to give up. Then at that moment I heard God tell me something. It was not audible, but I knew He was speaking. He told me not to give up. There was a reason for that. And I today finally knew his reason: he wanted to tell me that I had a limit myself, Amen. Today too, during the concert item, something made me a little upset at first. yea but I know one should not trap others and themselves. God told me to let go a little. I did, and yes I really feel great now. And of course, I want to thank God for the wisdom and the revelations that he was given to me through this whole 1 week, that even with a physical weakness, He let his glory shine through me and made me press on even with a sore throat.

yeap, so tmr marks a new beginning. Official JC life has started. We have to be a little more serious on stuffs now :) hhaha. so see you! ;) hope you guys did enjoy today! ;)

I missed a day of Orientation!

2006-03-06T18:13:00.000-08:00

HI I AM SICK. =X
bleahx. haha i should have gotten an mc yesterday. =X coz yesterday was super boring. ahhh. should not have gotten an mc today. haha aiyah, anw today not really our actual og! =X argh. so yea let's just go on with it! =X haha.

I'm excited about tmr - our new og and able to make more frens! =) wow. frens frens frens. hahaa sad to say I lost two of my best frens that I made through 1st three months! :( they went to other jc! but nvm hope they appeal back or at least, we still keep in contact with each other for sometime!

What should i do today? I think perhaps i want to take as long a break as possible, so that I can recharge for tmr! =) hahhaa. tmr is CSI and stuff so lots of walking and lots of stuffs to do! argh must get the briefing for the CSI! thursday is Sentosa! ahhhhhh! hhaha my fav place! =X after Olive Branch. toking of Olive Branch, it has been a while since I last went to Olive Branch! =X

haha yea I din change my subject combi! =) stick wif it lah. I know econs is diff, but my sis took econs too! somemore a level econs! okie I think I will stick wif it! hahaha! somemore it is more usable!

haha yea so today I am so laden with medicine! =X ahhh!

hahaha okie, go listen to li hong's diary song. she say can "heal" me. haa. okie.. we will see =P haha! k lah. I need rest! see ya guys!

posting results quite bad for sargas, but nvm, our spirit STAYS!

2006-03-04T21:18:00.000-08:00

hey shok mei! how is your mum! she sounds very ill. i hope everything is fine with her. I will pray for her. =)

prayer prayer. I just saw a sermon from cornerstone webbie today. wow. really gave me an insight into prayer. I want to make it for cell from next saturday onwards. I will. hha yea. thanks shok mei! you gave me the motivation to go for cell! =) yea I am suddenly re-alive again to do prayer and sorts. wow. really want to get into the mood for prayer and pray for my mother, my father my sister's salvation. And also pray for my friends' salvation. =)

yes! hahaa yeap erm CELL GROUP. getting really excited.
haa anw erm yea I am thinking of what to do for holidays. haha - sentosa ( my fav place now! ) hahaa and my first time at kbox. hahha nvr been there. just want to experience how it is like altho seriously speaking, I dun really like singing to tee vees. =X haha! yea and more time with frens and j. =) hhahaa! and yea get ready for jc too. =) also must get ready!

hahaha just contemplating life. hahaa. wah. I have one whole sunday free up to slack ah. =X haha think I shall read my Bread hhha till the current date. =) haha and then just sit down get ready for orientation! =) hahaa. I think i really have to take on the active role this orientation. haha hope hsiang yin would also be active coz she is a councillor. but happy to say, the people i work with are like people that i am qute close to. except hsiang yin lah. dun really feel close to her coz only worked wif her for t-shirt. haha yea. but really hope to get to know the freshies and make new frens this orientation! especially christian frens! =) hhaha

okie lah. I am waiting to get hungry. woke p late today mah.
11+ hahaa so yea waiting to get hungry then I go eat my lunch. =X else i shall fast. =Xh aa! lame

k lah! gtto go! bye!

wednesday - partial posting results.

2006-03-01T01:24:00.000-08:00

haha! what a wednesday. went to school wif j today morning! ( the train arrived at pasir ris super fast! :( );D haha! okie yea.... but it was a little quiet ah.. dunnoe why. I think coz she's a little stress about her fren and thing. =) but nvm nvm! =) haha man man lai... yea. Sometimes one keeps on thinking about how tings can go. yeah. at times I worry whether j wud like me or not, ( coz she din really say much about, just that perhaps she stopped wearing her specs after I told her. =P ) hahh yea... bt I guess we'll just be patient. cannot rush. hhaha for me on my part I just wanna see how it goes. if she can buy my quiet character, then I am all ready for her too. =) haha. yea yea.... must be patient! cannot think negative! =) haha. nic was like telling me which girl he finds cute! =P haha! oh yar btw. chio girls not= to girls that I like? =X oh man. a major misconception. haha.... doesn't mean a girl chio means I would like. but of course, the girls I like are chio to me. =P haha!

k lah. stop talking about girl liao. hhaha i sound so despo. BRR. =X hahha no lah.... that's what is mostly on my mind tis day. hhaha. but yea, liking someone sets a person free, not binds a person. =) hahaa okie back to school!. oh man. today there was a leak of the school posting results! I got into meridian jc! =) hahha but I heard that it was bullshit. yea. btI really pray for nic and aaron. really hope that hey can make it to mjc. they are all great frens. especially nic and aaron. =)

but yea. of course. I think we'll just wait for the posting results to be out. as long as can stay in mjc I am happy! =) hhaha yea I love mjc! =) hahaa. but I really hope some people can transfer out lah. haha.. yea. =) and I am staying in vball! =) of course lah duh. =X hahaa.

okie ah. I have to study for tmr's test! arigato! =)

sundae. not the ice cream, but the day!

2006-02-26T04:30:00.000-08:00

haha. yea, I know these slack days are coming to an end soon. =( hahaa. one more week and we'll get a full blast of the jc life. PW. more hmwk. more intense lessons. woah, somehow i scratch my head and ask myself how I will last through this 2 years. =X

haha. well today, I'm sorta easing into this quiet mood liao. really been thinking about depression. haha I must combat depression. haha I am not saying I am depressed or what. bt ever since my cousin told me about our family's history of depression, seriously I've been thinking quite a lot about it. hhah. I think I will go read up a little on this. haha and yea my cousin say that depression seems to run down our family. it may not be like full blown, but it could be little snippets of it. yea.

well but i guess one easiest way to combat depression really, is to be able to let go of things easily. hhaha yea. oh uraina did msg me back, was like telling her that din talk to her yesterday coz I felt weird toking to her. very weird. hhaha... perhaps all this while i had been running away from it, but yea i think she understands, and we're ready to be frens again! =) just have to combat this weird-ness. hahaa. oh and talia was talking to me today. yeap. I made up my decision to mjc. be it a good or bad, I will stick by it. =)

yea my day is mainly super boring and super working a lot. =X hhaha lots of work to do ah. Tmr early let off. wonder if i have training tmr. hmmmz. dun think so. anw if got then take it as I din know. haha! =P slacker. no lah. too hiong ah if 3 times a week. somemore i not in competition mah. =X

yea so that's it for my day! see ya guys tmr! =P

class party

2006-02-25T07:12:00.000-08:00

yah yah yah! =D had some kind of class party at kang yung's house. haha uraina went there. it was a little odd ah. =X I dunnoe why. I din talk to her ah, I mean, somehow I cannot get over it. it is still there. hahhaa bt since I am able to forget about her and everything, let's go on to be frens again okie? :) hhaha. that is if she replies my msg.

I shan't talk much about the class party. noting much lah, it was just food, meeting guys, kena saboed into the water and sorts! hahah bt at times, it was like lacking that sense of getting to know how each other got and what ah. perhaps it was a little too serious and what. haa but yea, then after that I went home with fiona and nasir. haha nasir stopped early. left me and fiona. but I din get to talk much. fiona was like talking a lot. -_-"

brr. haha then went home ! =) here I am! =X siao.

hahaa.

2006-02-24T04:19:00.001-08:00

beautiful fireworks.

okie actually supposed to blog yesterday. but i din! =) hahaa. anw yesterday nite was like super super excited ah. haha but I managed to go to sleep, if not today sure super sleepy! =) hahaha. yea.. been thinking about it. I think I should let my selfishness ruin this whole thing, just like how it did the other time. but at times just letting go of some areas. =) afterall, like is like, like is not possessing. =) haha! yea....

so what happened today. nic super notti. =P pon lessons! =X hhaha and daron came in his ncc land boots -_-' .brrr. haaa and erm yea, mr chia did not cum. yea the best day! friday with pccg lessons he din cum! hhahah then in the end mr ng kar kit took over. but it was nice ah. =) hhaha at first he super serious. he was like that day your behaviour was terrible. today I cum in here to tok to u all about it. then elis and I was like " oh shiittt...." haha then later he said: " no lah, just kidding." then ask us to sit down BUT HE WAS SUPER SUPER SERIOUS. I bet wif u, i gt a little freaked out. hahaha. yea. but pccg lessons with him was fun. super super super fun. firstly we were like sitting there and talked a lot. and then he let us hear some songs. I dun like the first one , but second one was quite nice. Love, Me by Collin Raye.

haha then yea. recess and everything. ahhaha. kenneth was like somehow threatening abel. haha yea. then another tkgs girl was like helping him. haha. I dunnoe lah, I just feel that abel had the courage to do what is right. which is good ah. but can see abel is somehow falling to peer pressure. ahaaa but anw, great that he is keeping up his momentum. haha just that he should be a little kinder with words. haha which is something I am not very good at too. =)

BANNERs! haha. there was like NO BRUSH FOR ME ? so I ended up being there staring here and there. KOPED nic's brush! =X hhaha for a while lah. then let him used again! . haha. bt we managed to paint the thing green. after that we just like became slack and then do the pla-card . hahaa. the pla-card ic is like woah. haha he can play the guitar super well loR! then he started playing Qing tian and even michelle branch! michelle branch!! =X ahhhhhhhhh! hhahha.

went home though. earliest house to go home. hahaa. then we were like meeting adeline on the way. hahaha then we keep on muah muahing haha! =X stupid stupid!! =X hahha!!!! bt then it was fun lah! =) haha.

yea so that's pretty much my day ah. =) hhahaa.

gtg see ya guys!

hahaa.

2006-02-24T04:19:00.000-08:00

ebu.

2006-02-23T06:10:00.000-08:00

haha. elation beyond understanding. =) thank you.

vball trainings are stepping up.

2006-02-21T06:32:00.000-08:00

haha well, what a 2 days. another 3 more days to weekend! chiong ah!! =X

I must say, really, jc life is like so hectic, so busy. hardly get a breather. but at the end of the day, jc life is very varied. I kind of like it. haha. I'm also starting to find a place in vball boys. getting a sense of belonging. although I am like starting to dread extra practices! =P haha but nvm, gym is cancelled tmr. sat's training! woah! get sun tan! =X

okie what am I toking about. ( a moment ago I was trying to rush this blog, coz I thot yan hong was like wanting to read, but since she's gona sleep, then nvm. ) erm yarp yesterday and today had vball. cool. _____ hurt his *erhum* today so din come for vball training. a little funny, but to respect the person's privacy, i din put WHO. so go find out if u are really that kpoh! =X

anw erm nothing much ah. school ---> vball ----> home. haha

was like reading her blog. hhaha really I'm just a little confused ah. perhaps she's not the person that I thought she was. I still dunnoe whether should I go on with this girl. haha yea. but I guess I just want a simple one if I do have one. why go to so much trouble? =X u know? =x hhaha. or is this some kind of test, trial? =X I not sure.

Yea. God is great. yeap. hahha this whole period, since last week was really feeling God's presence. hahaa. God I know my source of happiness comes from you. I need no one to be my source of happiness, although we need companionship, u God, are the only ETERNAL source of happiness. Thank you God.

yeap, erm so highlights for this week:
- barbeque at KY's house. hope vball dun drag.
- buying Joel's present --> joel's birthday cuming up.
- getting Sargas ready for O2.

yeap, haha really looking forward. though I am tired. =X

new mizunos, church and sunday life! =)

2006-02-12T02:34:00.000-08:00

hahaa I bought my new pair of mizunos. haha i bought it at 65 bucks, while others say it was like 55 bucks? haa. well nvm la, it's my first pair, so let's see where it gets to! =P haha really hope it can last for a while. jasmine say very fast gone! =X haha. well... that means I can get a new pair! =P hahaa.

today went church! holy communion. seriously, I wanted to partake in it, bt then haven't water baptize, so cannot. hahha kinda fun. gt the bread and the drink. okie but let's not deholy-ise this thing, it's quite a thing that christians take part in. =) but it's not my time, so i shall wait upon it for my time to come. went wif my cousin, and she was like very into it also ah. she even bought a chrisitan 'textbook' haha! =P yeap but i also find it very useful - the foundation! =) ( dun worry shok mei, i getting that for u! ur christmas present for 2005! )

then later went to suntec city to eat kenny rogers! =) hhaha. then heard a very shocking news from marlene, my cousin. Her brother is lawrence, which is also my cousin. She said that Lawrence saw Jesus Christ!!! Oh my. it was very very shocking. because I always thought that lawrence had already backsliden. At once really really very sad about it. But i later found out one thing, that Jesus Christ had manifested himself before my cousin when he was in the hospital. And after that, he was healed. yeap. a miracle. The doctors and psychologists also said that. wow. he is the second person that i know saw jesus christ.PTL! yeap and I really feel very glad. marlene told me that lawrence cannot understand why humans are so bad. that's why he is so withdrawn away. he has rather little frens, most of them are very close if he has any. and it's like although he doesn't go church, his heart is still towards God. To me, he is like a person that God has a favour over. He is the one. yeap, and I really hope that he would consider going into pastoral work. =) but whatever it is, I really pray that the presence of God would be with him. That God would protect him, for his heart is towards God. =)

yEah. me and my cousin really discussed a lot about Christianity. a lot of things. issues concerning christianity. I learnt that my uncle, though he looks simple is actually quite wise, deep and although he is not a Christian, he shows favour to brothers and sisters of God. yeap... Really hope that he too would receive salvation one day.

suddenly it struck me this thing - a few months back, I prayed to God about the fact that I was getting a little weary about Christian walk. There was no one in my family that supported me. And I am glad he told me about Marlene. And really, she has been a great emotional support for me. yeap. Thank You Lord. =)

okie so yarp, after suntec city, we went to queensway!! haha find volleyball shoes! =X oh my. it was super super super super super super ex! =X 100+. we took a while to find it. haha not that but coz we could not find the shop! then we heard this guy explaining to his daughter that the shopping centre is in an octagonal shape that's why easy to get lost. and we really got lost lorr!

but anw, we found it. it was beside this shop named : chau beng. (chao beng!) hahha! nvm. erm then we bought it. haha that uncle trick us. say the vball shoes are badminton one! =X argh. bloody uncle. haha! nvm we bought it in the end at a further discount of 1 buck!!!! haha. okie but they kind of look nice. haha.

then i came back! tmr going sentosa! =) hhaha. haven ask mum yet! see how!

o leve results - cuming out in 2 hrs.

2006-02-09T20:34:00.000-08:00

wow. it's really like good that I am going to get my results. it's a sign post. a landmark day. hhha btu let's not glorify this day and make it so serious, coz simply, it's just a day. hahaa.

well for those who got their o levels, and arent's really happy : a consoling point. this is not the end of the world! :) it's a challenge for u. if u are a believe in God ( like I am) then this is a point God has given to u, so that u can mature. If u get well, congrats. ur fruits of hardwork has ripen. but do not be compalcent, for there are much bigger and much better fruits that is waiting for u. So strive on.

yarp so that's my short little post before I head off to school.

good luck guys!

a day for results.

2006-02-09T04:56:00.000-08:00

tomorrow, the sum of all hard work - o level results would be coming out. Well what can i say, it's kinda just a day, I know not really feeling the o level vibes in me yet, I think it's coming when I start thinking about it. Really hope that it's good enough to let me stay put in MJC. but no matter what, really, just hope for a good result. =) For those out there receiving their results, have faith in urself, nothing is stronger that belief, no sadness will overcome one who has faith in themselves, and when they do not get what they wanted, their faith in accepting their results shall make them happy even with the results. i mean, think of it - u done the paper 2 months ago? no use feeling sad now. Must think of how to better-fy ur future. =)

okie, i getting the vibes now. =) hhaha but yeah, it's a great chance to see all the fellow people, friends, to see how jc life has transformed them for even a short period of 3 months. =) for me, it has made a difference. getting to know new friends, having new experiences, lectures, crappy teachers, crazy discussions and lots of stuff, of coz the honeymoon period is coming to an end, but of course it was a great experience. knowing new frens and everything. volleyball experience - starting to fit in with them, although having sports cca is a little tuff, but have to just get used to it! =) hahaa. afterall, it's all in the mind! =)

so today, went back with this VERY VERY cute girl! =P haha. k see she blushing now. hahaha whatever. well yarp went back with yan hong and dang shi and aaron and kenneth. ahah so fun! sadly, yan hong today sick and yeah, also din really say much also.

then sat mrt with dang shi and kenneth. Dang shi a little worried about his english ah. hahaa yea.

then went to cut hair! hhahah acrin super super funny!

okie lah, that's all, gt go liao! bye

2006-02-06T06:08:00.000-08:00

haaha life is rather funny right? =X

dunnoe, life has a rather unexpected twist. hahaha kevin kevin. what's the problem with u? getting upset over girls again?

haiz. k k, let's just focus away from girls again. THIS IS FRUSTRATING. =X

tiring week.

2006-02-04T06:00:00.000-08:00

this week is freaking tired. hahaha funny coz it's only like 3 days of school? but it's super jam packed. hhaha. wednesday was like first day of vball gym training, ran 2.4 km, then gym-ed. haha it was mad man - shuttle run, 10kg plate, then "gang" ball.. ahh! siao man.

thursday was like erm okie lah. I think because of ogl meeting. hahaha I dunnoe why lah, I want to help, but ogl meeting is at times a little boring. =X dunnoe? I dun really like the way the councillors handle it? probably not really the whole thing, but just the way they select people. =X yarp yarp, but perhaps I was tired or what ah. so that in itself lasted ah... friday was road race. haha 3.8 km. mad. =X I din run, i walked. it was cobbled path, and then it was hot, so it's really not advisable to run lah. =X ahaha later dehydration. mr chia treated s204 ice cream, but I din eat. coz I cannot take cold stuff on empty stomach! =X

then saturday - today - killer day. was super tired even before volleyball training. then i thought after the friendly with innova jc can zhao, but no, summore gt new type of drills. sia lah. but nvm gt vball gals team!! ;d hhaha lame. =X hhaha gt jasmine? =x haha she rox lah.

well so here I am. chao tired. =X keke. maybe shall sleep! bye!

new year day 3 - tmr is school!

2006-01-31T06:23:00.000-08:00

woah! blading blading blading! hahha gt the hang of it today! we went scouting for blades - man it was super super bad. we went parkway, the bloody shop suppose to open at 11 am did not open. end up we had to go home for lunch then come back. BUT we bought the blades in the end. okie. I din know my FEET was that small! =X argh. hahaa.. well whatever. so we bought and we went to the park to blade. 1.5 hours of solid blading. just bladed all the way - from big splash to pa! ahhhh!! it's so fun! oh and I saw the water ski thingy. hhaha quite weird ah. I wun go there many times. maybe once or twice. =X so small!! =X

lol! love is in the air! haha valentine's day. yan hong reminded me of it. hahha funny to me it's not a very special day. well really hope she gets to see her ( erhum ) u know? :P haha.

and at the same time, I found out that the person I like likes another person. HAIZ. nvm lah.. kambate! =X dun get sad, we'll just follow God's path and see how everything goes k? =(

but aside from that, today was kinda fun. blading with my sis. haha something we din do for quite long. I think after my sis started to rush for her o's and everything, we gt pushed apart a little. now glad that we are doing things together again. =) hahh way to go! hope she blades more often. =X hahaha.

oh my aunt came my house today! hahahaha got more angbaos again! haha but not much. planning to buy a new shoe, to replace that existing smelly pair of shoes. kekeke! =P

okie that's about it all!

Happy new year!!

2006-01-28T08:49:00.000-08:00

hahah went back to tk - a little worth it. I din see many of my old frens ah, just that I managed to see nasir. hahaha. my sec school fren.

the feeling is a little different now. can see that I kinda miss the days I had with nasir. yar, altho he was a little quiet, but he was a great fren, one who really gives u support and everything. haha then we went to talk to mrs ong, mrs koh and mr yusri. and mr yusri was like saying that mjc might lower their cut off point? haha but I dunnoe ah. after visiting the teachers, me and nasir went to eat.(nicholas came along with us but he went home )

haha we just talk about lots of jc stuff. hahha! the best thing was nasir found the girl in his life. hhahha! yarp felt really happy for him. haha his wish to go jc, he finding the girl and yar, really very happy for him. haha but I'm not supposed to spread it though! =P. then yar, we went to tampines together. haha somehow there's lots of stuff for us to tok. wasn't enough.

really start thinking about relationships - somehow after what happened between me and *erhum*, I'm just super super careful with it. hahaha yea. haha and at times really I get a little inferior about myself. I dunnoe why. hahahaha. yea, but I know I am not there yet. I'm waiting for God's calling. when God says: okie then I willl proceed. =) hahaha. but to excite u guys out there, i have a target nowww =P hhaha. dun tell u who! na na na na na na na( reggie cheer )

hahah and yeap I went my aunt's house to stay! =X yea yea! hahha!
movie marathon - Election and Myth ( din watch all! ) and The Last Days.
The Last Days was about the Holocaust. lots of scenes! very scary! =X kekeke. The other two are in chinese!

okie so GONG XI FA CAI to u guys! gtg!

let there be words. and there was words!

2006-01-22T02:46:00.000-08:00

the coach spoke. finally.
yeah man. my volleyball coach has finally thought me something after like 3 trainings? hahah but i think it's quite of normal for most sports. the coach usually won't teach basics, he teach how to attain pro-ness. bt nvm, he thought me how to set! =X which is like a little simple, but isn't really. so some key pointers.
1. the triangle rule - triangle hands and fingers. arms out to air ur armpits!
2. "dun" xia lai. - means, bend ur legs
3. once the ball touch ur fingers, it must leave - if not, u will hear a "peeeep! FOUL!"
4. ball nvr touch ur palms, if nt u will lose ur virginity.
and so, with the golden words of the coach, i have gained this skill called setting! =D

hah I also met a new guy in volleyball, Augustine ( sounds like girl name? ) dunnoe but he's a boy! hahah quite tall. hahha he quite friendly ah, at first I thought he was that kind of dao kia, but I think he is just quiet. his hitting style is a little different from others. hhah that's why I tend to remember him. haha. oops and the other 4 j1s pangseh-ed me! :( arghs.

but i think the coach is quite nice. friendly too? =X kekeke. nvm... beginning to like volleyball even more! I mean, isn't that cool. =P no apparently it is not.

oh and got to know this girl. she's one cute girl. hahaha =X shan't say much.

ogl interview was like, shitted a little. hahaha i din raise my hands when they asked: " who would stay in mj if they gt 6 pts for o's" hahah. and yan hong, she also nvr raise! lol and she saw me nvr raise! hahaha. she say the rest raised. sorry lah, 6 pts can go vj leh! :( hahaa. okie, but if u say 7, I would raise. coz I dun think iwanna go tjc after what i heard about the principal, u know, after mrs p chan. =X so mjc or tjc!! =X hope I can stay in mjc ah, after all that's the best mah. hahaha.

okie, so like really thinking hard about what this year is going to be. Think i wanna concentrate on volleyball. hhaha it's like suddenly there is a flame for volleyball!=X

back from volley, and a jc life.

2006-01-17T05:37:00.000-08:00

it's like one week of meridian is gone. and we are getting our results on 6 february.

It's like you suddenly begin to get scared of results cause that is always the what if factor in there. well I really dunnoe what to say, but then, there is school tomorrow.

I'm in volleyball? the guys there are quite nice - they really help u a lot. the captain chao serious but then he is also really into the game and quite nice. his name --> horace. weird name? yarp. but then I feel bad cause at times i really dunnoe what to talk about with them. =X hahaa.

but then, they are nice. AND. the twins. =X darn, i cannot differentiate! yarp but one of them kena suan by the coach ah..

the vice captain also kena suan like what ah, but his spike is like standard ah. me my thing is like... bleahx. cannot make it --> but practice ! haha and perservere and dun get haolian!

anw! i have to go now! bye!

hari raya haji hols update

2006-01-10T05:59:00.000-08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI! =X
haha that's to all malay frens out there! =X oops my hp spoil, if not I can sms nasir! kekeke.

anw, talking of hp, samsung is super efficient. they got my handphone fixed in just... 1 day? =X woah! how nice of them. I wonder if nokia does that. kekeke

erm today is quitta just another holiday? =X hahaha. erm went through all my notes now, so iam super super super nerd now. kekeke. and then I watched 1 leg kicking, and did my gym workout today. din go gym though, just carrying weights at home. =X

argh! i can't wait to get my permanent timetable?

coz nw I dunnoe whether to start my engines going and I can't fix my gym day! this is so !!!! fff!! =X hhaha, well nvm.

tmr is cca recruitment day!! haha hope I can get into volleyball ah, if cannot then I might choose floorball or taekwando! erm I dun think gt so shuai all 3 cannot get in right? but volleyball like nobody wants to join. =X which is good, or bad. =X I dunnnoe

anw, I think i wan to go into my daily devotionals! =D bye!

sargas - emerging from the dead.

2006-01-07T02:34:00.000-08:00

we did it.
The Whole Of Sargas.
And yesterday, we shit the other groups out - Alhena, Regulus and the Castors.

And Vega, yes we were a little disappointed, but hey, everyone was entertained by our songs! so who cares!! =D hahaha but yes, like what Joseph said, we brought a club into MJC and brought MJC into a club. ( but without the beers and whatever ) so we all had fun, we jumped to the music, cheer to the music, groove and everything. ah what the shit! it was so fun yesterday.

then we went to clear the rubbish in the canteen. haaha, then we went to HDB block to have our sargas meeting. woah! it's so funny.. haha. because we were like wearing black, and carrying signs of scorpions, if i was a resident there, I would be very scared, cause it looked like some kind of satanic meeting. but no, it was a meeting of happiness, of victory, and of a heart that was fresh from a long awaited second, which somehow we were never near there, but we clinched the second in the campfire and shit the other groups. ahh shitttt!!!! =D haha but yesterday was one of the happiest days for sargas people.

then there was mass dance! livin da vida loca and couple dance. haha so fun!

this orientation was great - the experiences, the friendships that we made, although somehow I wasn't very speaky these few days, probably because I had to get use to the timing and everything but it was great. albertus, desmond, wei qiang! hahah.. and the girls which I din really get to know them. ( coz i super bias, but nvm ). i hope we stay as a class, the boys, and add more girls to retain the mix! haha. I think the ogls, the councillors, they worked hard. they came early and sorts. they gave their hearts out and they just perservered, said hi to us and everything, kenneth, the quiet but lame ogl, nicole the efficient councillor, lisa, the yuzhen look a like councillor. the whole orientation wanted to ask her whether she had a sister( who could be yuzhen) but din had the balls lah. so nvm! haha but she really look like. and erm xuan yong, the super dirty guy, dirty jokes and everything. hahah!

kinda attached to mjc now. it's like power packed 4 days. hahha I hope we keep in touch with each other, but any way, I hope to get the email of all the 4 ogls! =D and our group photo too!

lol, but I think yan qi super angry wif me now. coz i keep on sabo-ing her. keke. =D
well nvm, but this is really one great orientation ah

and today was TK's orientation day. hahaha saw mr tchen, and he was telling me:
every jc is good.
and it kind of struck me. because jessica was asking me to get out of mjc because it was not so established and blah blah. but I think she's right. every jc is good. if I like mjc, then I should stay. no use comparing with other jcs. and moreover, i trust God. He put me in this jc and not in Tjc for many reasons.

that's why I am staying in mjc. =)

sargas GO FIGHT! first day at meridian.

2006-01-03T00:57:00.000-08:00

sargas 3.
I love sargas 3! haha well at least today's mjc's orientation was fun! quite fun actually. i wanted to be a little more enthu, but then the people around me not so enthu, so aiyah, kena influence.

heil lai!
hahaha our great leader started off with the speech in the morning. I dunnoe whether it was a good start but then i like to hear miss lai's speech. kekekekeke. after that we were playing ice breaker games. - failure. hahhhab ut then it was still fun. jonathan super funny. another ogl dunnoe what name, but then super handsome, and super dirty. come and tell me what pe teacher very cute. hahaa ( but true lah, the pe teacher quite cute) hhaha. oh then i saw kenneth ong! my old time fren. hhaa

screw chior!!
so for another consecutive school i screwed choir. how? i purposely make my voice monotone. hahhaha.. aiyah, even if u did well, u go up they also ask u to cum down. so might as well ease their job!

yuzhen's look alike..
my ogl looks like yuzhen. cool rite? haaha so alike. scary sia. and jian xin thinks so too. but her name is melissa I think.

okie today we ended quite early, so nothing much to update u. but! cum tmr when CSI starts, kekeke, it would be very interesting.

auld lang syne! - year 2006

2005-12-31T20:15:00.003-08:00

a new year, a new beginning.
yes! 2006 is here! hahaa and I am very positive about 2006 now!

auld lang syne.
if you are hearing the Auld Lang Syne behind this post, do sing it! and remember what the lyrics of this Scottish song holds! and as the year starts, let's just sing together this Auld Lang Syne Tune shall we? =D

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And never brought to min'?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days o' lang syne?

For auld lang syne, my dear:
For auld lang syne,
We'll tak a cup o' kindness yet
For auld lang syne!

just sing it over and over again until the music stops ( which never stops! ) and if you are with someone now, get them to sing with you! Woah!

a great City Harvest sermon.
was listening to City Harvest's service today. 4 things that I will not bring with me in 2006!

4things to leave behind!

1. Old sins that God has forgiven - I have committed a lot of sins this 2005. God has forgiven me so I shall move on and not look back! ( genesis 19:26)

2. Old Defeats that have gotten me down - These old defeats include not being able to pull my family closer, not being able to get to TJC, HECK THEM AND MOVE ON!!! =D

3. Old Conflicts that make you bitter - these include the conflict that I had with my father, my conflict with jun jie, yes they make me bitter, but what better than to forget them since God has forgiven you!

4. Old Victories that make you think you have arrived - Woah, 2005, a glorious year, but this is only the beginning, God has even better things for me in 2006! So HECK these old victories and let us go on to better and greater victories in 2006!

indeed, 2005 has been great. but 2006 will be even greater. Come September 2006 it would be the first anniversary of my Salvation! =) hahaha! yeah!

I am still praying very hard for my father's cough. he's been coughing very badly since we went to Korea and I have been praying hard. =) I hope you guys would join me in this prayer. And please ask me to pray for any of you or ur family members! =)

but victories and aside, I am still deciding about my CCA - Student Council or Volleyball or Something Else? hahha. I'm starting to go for Volleyball. Coz Student Council is a little hectic. and afterall, i want a new experience! so let's see what would happen on 11 January's CCA Recruitment. keke!

woah meanwhile u guys do celebrate this new year and make a committment to renew yourselves okie? And 2006 we'll CHIONG AHHHHH!!!!!!!!

this 2006

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this 2006.
kinda mad because I was just thinking of a title for new blog. this 2006. some kind of 2006 that I don't know. I don't know what this 2006 would bring, but well, let's hope that this 2006 is going to be an exciting and fun filled one okie ?

first things firsts.
- korea 2005 trip photos are up!! haha. do take a look!
- have u set ur goals for 2006? haha well for those who haven, here's mine to inspire u. I hope it does inspire, well even if it doesn't, the same old two words - TOO BAD.

goalone
volunteer work
I am signing up to help COH ( Christian Outreach for the Handicapped ), at least once every fortnight. I really have to work out my schedule, but this has been something that i wanted to do since the December hols, so I really want to work this out!
on top of that, I am also lining up a list of charitable organisations that I will be helping out during my long hols! =) I am intending to go back to Care Corner this 2006 december holiday, with my family. hope they allow.

goaltwo
gym training
inspired by my cousin, I am going to Bedok Gym once every week. Say if i cannot make it then maybe I can try the Meridian JC gym! it's quite big and I hope they open it, not like TK de. yarp to tone up my body. hahaha okie yar I'm not obsessed with getting big but just like to train. kekeke.

goalthree
hot for God
what does it mean to get hot for God? hahah i invented this phrase. kekeke. means I really want to beef up on my Bible reading and prayer. never mind if I cannot go to church! most importantly is I fellowship with fellow Christians ( shok mei, cliff, and many more! ) and of course I am seeking to bring someone to Christ too this year!

wah! what a year it's going to be.
yeap this year is going to be some what of a challenging, it's not going to be easy. I have heard people slacking for o's but not for a's! so really, it's time to get my ass on the study table!

figured out.
yarp, I finally gt the network thingy figured out. so from now on I can transfer files between my computer and my sis's computer! hhaha. happy.

now?
still waiting for the Shutterfly photos to upload finish before I can put the link here!
listening to some final fantasy midi which stupid jing huang put on his frenster account!

before?
adding loads of secondary school fren to my frenster! also managed to find one other TNS fren! used to be the girl I like! lol! hhaha. changed a lot.

okie see ya!